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Yo Yo! I'm back =]

2011-01-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

Well Well, it has taken me 6 months away from blogging. Not so long nor too soon. Half year of preparation for STPM has finally come to a dot. The half year is not good as i thought, busy preparing for the exam, research, and bla bla bla. Anyhow, decided not to think about it right now. For now it's the time for me to think about wad Uni i shl put my choice on it. People told me before doing that, u shl estimate ur own result first. That helps u to get into the Uni u want.
Right, Im not sure about how my result would be, but definitely not that good i guess. Have not been doing my best. Reason? Forget about it. It's the thing i would rather delete it from my mind, but i know i can't. It's more hurtful as the one who get hurt is not u. *Breath deeply* Life still have to go on.
The deadline is 7/1/2011, i got 3 more days to think about it. Im confused and i think i have run into chaos. I don't sure exactly wad i want and wad im thinking. In fact, im not just that good in expressing myself, telling nor writing. This is the first time in my life, i would say... Forgive about my foolishness, just hope everything is a change there. Life is so cruel when we have to face the fact, the fact created by my own..
In short, my life doesn't look good in the recent time. But i will get this all alright. Just wish me good luck. For now, to decide the Uni, and the result. =]

p/s: Life is though, not just a word can describe how though is it. But i will try, with all my heart and my soul, to fight, to do whatever thing i can...

Are u doing okay?

2010-06-14T01:25:00.001-07:00

Since last post, 4 April, it has been 2 month i didn't update my blog due to busy preparing the coming mid-year exam. Well, the exam is not really good to me and my health ofcuz. Won't be doing that till before the final test. Within these two month, lots of things happen on me, well, not a big deal. And people asked me, 'why don't u update ur blog?' In fact, i don't really like to polish my mind before typing in to this square box. So i'm sorry to readers who always update to me but at last, disappointing. I'm doing okay here. So how's u all? Still doing okay? No news is good news, i strongly believe that.

Recently friend and friends are having their own relationship with a girl or a boy. By side looking on this, they don't really know that having a partner is not really as what they thought. They thought it could be fun, 'having a girl friend, good to hug and a girl to talk to, why not?' Feedback that disgusted me. That's also why i always see people hanging on the phone and their face told us that they are not happy and instead, not really happy. For me, having a girlfriend can be considered as a burden, it's our responsibility to take care of her, do we really know how to take care of our partner? Oh really? Think again...

Sometimes, we wish to take care but we don't really do it well;
Sometimes, we want to take care but we give her a silence instead;
Sometimes, we wish to understand but just what we wish;
Sometimes, we want to understand but mess up the whole thing;

Sometimes, we have our own emotional too;
Sometimes, we have our own works too;
Sometimes, we're working for what we aim;
Sometimes, we're having our problem.

So what if all the sometimes added up, it would be every times...

P/s: No offense to couples, I'm sorry if i did.

April day 4/4

2010-04-04T11:33:00.000-07:00

Friend leaving to further his study is a good news. Today 4/4, is the day he leaving us. However everyone keeps telling me that He is leaving, don't u feel lonely? Funny, I ain't to be a gay. For me to know that he is leaving for his own choices, no matter what it is, should glad that he made his decision. What is on his future, it all depends on God, may God lead him and bless him. I believe this is the best wish. Well, back to this situation, the time he leaving brings me a shock in my heart. Thousand of pictures flying through my mind, i can barely keep my steady and give him a hug. Wishes him the best. Wave my hand and nothing much formal than this, Bye and take care.. Through this, i know deeply in my heart, it's not a sad emotional but hope! Hopeful on him. That's what i really think of. Looking back what we had together, that should be kept well as it has become memories.

Well, his leaving has brought me a new life. An arrangement should be made in order to adjust back to the life that i should have. A life that will be alone, less talk, and less fun of course. Blade always has both side. Don't matter on that. Getting my mind to positive side. Be hopeful, every tribulation will bring us perseverance. We shl be joyful in it. :)

p/s: Gentlemen, arrangement is activated. Get rdy ur arms to get hurt!

Recently

2010-03-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

Cold water flows through every single of my hair, by taking a deep breath, i can feel myself, i'm still alive. The feeling doesn't lie. It's time to be honest to myself. I lift up my head, water spreads out from my face, everything that questioning me, sarcastically look at me, and torture me in my daily life will come to me now. The water keep flowing down, i can barely feel the water flows through my mind. It's time, Sun raise up and slowly, i can feel the light shot on my face, the little heat...

Well, recently few things happen on me. It can be said to be nothing if i really take it as nothing. On my physical, mental, and so... Since i choose to do so, i don't expect any goods. And ofcuz, feed back will be spelled back. I really take a long long time to calm down myself, think carefully, everything that i do, i did, what i hv done... I dare not tell myself that it's fool, but i can't describe it anyhow. It's said that this is the path that everyone will go through it. I agreed but i can't satisfy with myself.

When i turn my face and look into other situation, the view is totally different from what my eyes always involved in. I can feel my life back. The section is clear. It takes me another deep breath. Look into it, and look back to it, i question myself again. Do u really like that? Don't break ur spear using ur own shield..

Now, I'm standing in the conjunction, i don't really can see what is in front of me but i can sure what is better to me by reading the road signs. Well, darkness comes to me. It's going to rain soon. I shl make my decision earlier so that i can hide myself. Well, people always confuse in this situation, afraid to make a conclusion which they as myself will be wrong. Life is no regret, no part 2, no NG. This reminds me the poem, The Road Not Taken. I hv ntg much comments on this. I pray to God, for him, He knows the way i shl take, and he will lead me to the place i shl be.

P/s: Slowly and slowly, i believe i can forget abt it. Time is the key, to open, or to lock...

Back New Year!

2010-02-17T23:15:00.000-08:00

Yo! I'm back~ Quite a long time didn't sign in my acc. Just standing beside and reading others blog. =P Becuz of what? What Mr.Chew always states our class, L.A.Z.Y. Well, back to here, new year time is going to end soon. Time to pack my things and also, my mood and plan to back to my bird nest. Here's my new year journey~ Let's ride
(Wed)

Early in the morning, i started my journey to fetch Haren and Jlim and headed to IBM, where our starting point. And also, met Vior at there.

At Mr.Chew house, he is the cutest teacher i ever met. Kindly take a pic with him, he looks younger! His house is awesome. =)
Xuan: " Sir, let's TWO~"
Chew: " No, TEN better, HAHA."
Xuan: "..."

The amount of angpao i got, YET, it will be increased. =)

In my car, from left, Me, Vior, Haren and JLim. =)

Well, we went many places, most of them are friends, 2 teacher - Mr.TLK and Mr.Chew. We had our dinner at Li Ho's house, steamboat. ^^ Thn we departed at about 8p.m. Decided to hv a movie, all headed to Pacific, where we thought the highest percentage we can get tickets with good seats. Big small soldier, though it consisted only laugh, we still enjoy it. And we found a secret there. Wahaha~

Well, that's all for my recent journey. The rest, Coming Soon~ =)

p/s: Bonding in chem is awesome, single bond, covalent bond, ionic bond, and Hydrogen Bond! Careful!!

New to 2010

2010-01-30T09:16:00.000-08:00

I don't really expect the date now is 30/1/2010. First month has passed without any notice. Ya, what i talk abt is not only the date. Looking forward to the date, cancel out all of the time on sleeping, play, on class, on special day which we would properly allow us to waste it, on fun, on friends, on 4 words - L, A, Z, Y and etc.. STPM is no longer in front of us..

For now, i meet the friend that i heard of him long long time ago, who i nvr meet.. His name "pressure". I think i can communicate with him well, that's why he keeps on with me. We talk less, cuz he likes to stay around me and looking at me without making any sounds. He's cute, as i invites him for a game or outing to relax, he rejects. He accompanies me always whenever in class, in hostel, in my bed, in my dream... He told me that he comes from a place, named "Surrounding". It's somewhere around the world. He can find us through study, work, friends, family and etc.. i found that most of them are becuz of high-expectation. Expectation to u, from friends, from family, from urself.. Well, i don't often start our conversation unless he talks to me first.. Sometimes he will go for hols too as my hols too. Well, he told me that he will spend at least 1 more year around me. I don't talk much, just continue doing what i shl do...

Ok, let's back to recent life.. It's just like a formula, by filling in the same conditions, results will always almost the same. May be this is what we called it as study project. the project that most of us will hv to face it. One day, we will hand in it and present it. Well, the formula still works on me, waiting the day to break the formula.

p/s: Knowing where our sun is, run towards it, without any delay, make it proud of us.

It's time

2010-01-16T08:44:00.000-08:00

A time ago,
Don't really know,
just think to go,
the way to go,
as i do so,
it's hard to me so...

Think to give,
as a gift,
not to you,
but to both,
may hv gibe,
still better not to gig...

I should do so as i do,
Like a fool who's too sure,
A fire without flame,
I'm a song without a soul...

An emo poem, which perhaps can make me feel better.. As time goes on, lower six has past. Nothing to talk much about my study, it's boring. Anyway, i will do my best on it. Makes no regret, no mercy to the paper! It's time to "Culling blade" the complicated situation. As too much of things is unexplainable, better get myself out of there. Promised myself not to put an eye on there, not even single moment to think to do that. As that really affected my mood,indeed.

Ok, that's all the report about my recent target. Will modify it as to suit the situation. STPM left 312 days starting from today. Subtract from holidays and unexpected day to go out, I don't think we got much time to revise. To be well prepared for the coming exam SOON, start from now! Makes no excuse to the exam as to ourself too! =) F2

p/s: The graph which feeling against righteous is always inversely proportional.

Back to Jan

2010-01-01T12:13:00.000-08:00

I have been away for a month of my blog ago. Here is my report. =]
Birthday - We have to prepare it since after our final exam. 19/12 It is my b'day, my lovely family and cousin had organized a BBQ party for me to celebrate and they bought my favorite choco cake for me. I was so touched! =) After that, i hv to go back to my hostel and continue my 6th form stuffs at there. Sounds like a sad story huh. But i don't think that way. For me, birthday is not only a birth mark to me, but a day that i shl be thankful to my mum who brought me here. Love u my mum, thanks for every moment u give. Love u. =]

Dinner - After my b'day, there will be IBM farewell dinner 2009 at Equatorial Hotel. I was the MC that night, admittedly i didn't really prepare well for that, I'm sry to everyone here. That night I almost went crazy as 90% our program had been spoiled, I was like the ant on the hot kettle. Thanks God, I prayed to God and God answered me by actions. After praying, everything went smooth and everyone did really enjoy the dinner. ^^ At last, It can be said the night is awesome. =)

Christmas - Before Christmas, 24/10 we went to orphanage. Visit them and knows about their life. We shl glad that we got a chance to call papa and mama. We're the lucky one. Will tell details if i still got free time to blog. =) Christmas. We celebrate Christmas it's becuz the name of Christ has come to this world and there will be a new king who can save us. That night, we all did very well, not the performance but the teamwork of us. =) Everyone takes care of other and helps around there. Then we had our supper in Mamak at Taman Pekaka. A great night. =) Merry Christmas.

New year - Happy new year. A new year has come to us but i don't think it's happy. May be it's becuz the date is far far away again from my b'day. Anyway, new year recalls me much things. What i have done, what i did... *too long here* Short cut>> So as a result , I didn't attend my cousin's new year celebration party at Penang, though i went to Perak, Lumut, with teachers and some of my friends. It's a great place to let our hair down, swimming and basketball, both my favor activities. =] We had joy in the room while everyone talks non-stop. The most moment that i felt every tension has gone is the time after swimming, i took a bath, sit comfortly on the sofa, looking at TV, and i tasted a drop of Coffee. Hmm~ Nothing better than this. ^^

p/s: Here is all short cut about my hols, a busy and meaningful hols. =) I'm sorry it's without pic, will try to upload in the coming post. It's quite late now. 5am. I might say it as quite early now. =P

Short story : B'day gift!! ^^

2009-12-06T03:55:00.000-08:00

Yea,it's a external hard disc which both of my cute,beautiful,kind and charming sister gave to me as my birthday present. Of course,I'm not showing but just want to share my happiness. These both sister always take care of me and it goes on since i was still chewing my nipple. So touching while i receive this. ^_^ Anyway,it's just a short update to my recent life. =) Thanks to my sister here. Love u both. =)
Wish to IBM students who is having their final exam next week all the best and the most important thing,good luck. Lolz. Going back to my lovely hostel later,mood down-ing. ~.~

p/s: If u understand me,it's understood. =)

Dream = Drug

2009-11-26T20:05:00.000-08:00

Everyone has their dream,of course,included me. But what we gonna do with our "growing up age" is to recognize dream and target. Dream,we can make it anytime,anywhere,anyhow. It doesn't need any requirement,as long as u're the main character,everything will just follow ur wish to go on. Dream is perfect to us huh? There is still a very fine line upon it. Facts always tell us that dream doesn't perfect. Admitted..

"You may dream,but do not make dream as ur master",a phrase from form 5 poem,we all still remember,don't we?

"Who will make dream as our master,HaHa,of course not." Sounds similar from every mouth of us,not bad.. Thinking of someone is always shown to us by their behavior and not words.

Thinking, we shl make some time to realize,don't we?

But after realizing,what we always do to it is to ignore. Do nothing on it. "Haiya,just a dream,it won't affect me much." Sounds good. =)

In deep of our heart,we all know that,don't we?

We will commit again.
Ways to solve it will only be known by our self.

Target,which involved logical thinking,future,our self and of course planning. We shl always target our self,but not dreaming our self. As we know,dream is just like a drug,when u lie to urself,this drug kills all ur brain cell. Ur brain will become a nutshell. "It's just like gravity,what it takes is a little push." Do not even make this push to us. As this age,everything is attracting us,it's impossible not to dream,we all know about this,dream will drug our self to enjoy or perhaps,forget the facts. Dream is a Drug. After taking off this drug,we will only find nothing,nothing...

p/s: As i said,it's impossible not to dream. So what i typed up there is nonsense,yet,there is still a very fine line upon it. Infinity always tells us that Zero can be anything,can be nothing. =)
U still can take the drug if and only if u got the immunity skill and u may swallow the drug.

Two Holi-Days at Penang

2009-11-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

"Every time u touch me,i will become a hero. U walk into my life. I know what's beautiful,just looking at you."

Recently can't update my own blog due to some personal reason. It's DAMN boring can't use my com after coming back from the bird nest. These days i really think of so much things. I can't expect me to know all these. Things that will always affect me,things that always around me,things that will make me stronger,I'm lost. In this situation,no one can come out an conclusion. What i have to do is shut up,and do my own things.

"Come on guy,u still got a long long way to go." I always do to tell myself. Don't stop whenever u meet obstacle. After watching 2012,it seems all these have to be proven wrong. Of course,it is just a movie. What I'm trying to say is the time flies with no signal. Sometimes,just stop and look around me and behind me what we have done.

Well,let's come back to real life. Just finished marathon and back from Penang. It's exhausted. However,i did really enjoy these 2 days. Fainted 7 hours after coming back,i think it's quite short for me,going to sleep back later. Wahaha. k la,time to pack e'thg and have to go back to nest d. NVM! Holidays is coming soon soON SOON~ ^^ Let's put our hand in the air and wait for it~

p/s: There is always a reaction after applying force on something. Bad Xuan. =)

Second before gonig back to bird nest~

2009-11-01T01:31:00.000-07:00

Emo-picture again? No no,it's just a fun-taking with my friends while jogging at Meng Kuang. Oh,sunset.i like it! =)

6th form farewell which will be organized at the coming Dec 20,and I'm the director of our club. Well,it really doesn't a big deal to me,what big deal it is the party,is just a day before my.. Waliao eh..How can it be like that.. Haih..Admit,and do it,ntg gonna chage it. T^T

Quite busy nowadays,study+6th form works have taken all my time. It's not bad though. Haha,I won't be emo and think of excess wasting my time. =) Recently,i did really play too much of DotA,pawn and pawn,get killed and ended. My time is just like water flowing away. Should have adjust my time table again. Next week,more accurately,next Saturday,will be our MUET exam day. I really hope to get what i wanted,Band 4. Then i can drop English in the coming upper six. That will be really free to me.

K la,going to pack my things and go back to bird nest again,all the best and good luck my friends. =)

Prayer:Lord,help those who are facing their MUET exam. Taking away their nervousness and empower us. Amen.

Walk by walks

2009-10-28T08:18:00.000-07:00

"General,we have lost contact to team 3,report in,over.."
"We are in position,ready to...*Screaming*"
"General? Team 2 team 2 please response,over."
"*sha*...*sha*.."

Disorganization failure

Lost connection for unclarity causes. Enemy is using unknown weapon damaging our system and causes eardrum explode. Team 2 and Team 3 have been defeated.18 people have been confirmed dead...

Reported by Mr.Fact

Language,connection,link,relationship and self-esteem have been a velum to human in communicating. Ya of course,we are still in contact.but what do we really contact? Body? Spirit? Soul? Or i think the answer probably would be Mouth Communication Interchange(M.C.I). MCI has been using so wildly and it is said to be normal. People is only communicating with using only their mouth. "Cannot mah,how to chat jek? We are not the friend as good as u thought and mostly,we are in wrong channel." Very typical answer. =) Indeed. So what have we seen in our future path? These so called "friends"? Unmoral attitudes?

Admittedly,everyone has their own enemy in their life. Along the path,enemy would be different following our path. The most important thing to defeat "him" is to know him. Realize him,attest to him,face him,take care of him (then use a knife to thrust him!),of course,a joke.. Yea,people has told us this era years ago. To realize him or not? You are the only one can know it. Easy,everyone has their fault,their own enemy. Delay may bring failure,as the soldiers stated above. Unknown brings tragedy. And,what element makes this enemy? Some said it is a psychogenesis,yourself, and may be,other people. All depends on us. Life can be meaningful,don't waste it in depression. May God bless u all,my friends. =)

Storming We3k..

2009-10-23T10:20:00.001-07:00

Yea,just like the tree inside the photo,striking storm. Tree will keep on growing tall and taller to get enough sunlight for their food transformation,photosynthesis of course. As things undergo normally,storm is always out of realize-able.. Just like me..

I just do the things,as normal,everything follows the formula. Though,how long did i really filter myself into the formula,which i had forgotten what i should do and also shouldn't do.
Unexpected event has waken me up anyway. I should get rid of that,indeed. It's not a big deal though,but what i can really sure is i have to really think of that,my starting with my ending. Will it be possible a sad ending or something else. Prevention is always better than cure.

Now i standing at there,i should take the rest,and face it without doubt. Faith will carry me on. Yup,i like a girl which i really didn't notice that i like her. So i don't think liking a person is wrong,i do like many people and love my friends. What i gonna do in this case is to admit and keep it well in transparent relationship. Make us friend as possible as i can. Let all things go under nature. Don't think too much and focus on my study.

P/s:When the time will be,it will be. =)

Meaningful Day..

2009-10-17T21:10:00.000-07:00

Ah Lim,the only one chinese at there,he is now form 5,God bless him. =)

Kids from there,cute + innocence. =)

On the way to waterfalls!! Siok nia~ haha~

On self-possession.. =)

YoYo~quite like this photo. =) haha..

17 Oct 2009,early in the morning 8.00a.m,my phone's alarm rang,and as usual,i threw my phone away..8.55a.m,Jerry came to my house and ready to fetch me to church to gather. Waliao,i dash to my bathroom as well as packing on my way. How can i do that? I don't know. Human always can do something that is impossible for a 'normal' of you in the urgent situation. Lolz..

After all,we began our footstep to orphanage. I'm the first time to step into there. It's out of my expectation. Anyway,after setting e'thing down,dean told us about the history of this orphanage. In 80-an,he was a civil technician in Johor,he got a high salary job,around Rm8000-Rm9000. One day,he heard that God ask him to leave his job and create this orphanage. By the way,he is a Muslim. His family agreed with that. Then he started his first bible study and training class at there. In 89-an,he was alone to Sungai Petani,he got nothing,no one that can help him,but God. His faith bring him here. Everything God has planned for him. In 90-an,he started this orphanage. Neglected children will be sent here. And three years ago,their orphanage got financial problem,they prayed for it. After 1 week,a guy from Australia phoned him,and asked him *******,is that ur bank account number? He answered 'yes.',and asked who is him? The guy said nothing but just said that he want to donate RM50k money to their orphanage. Until now,they still dunno who is the guy. How well is God helping us. =)

After that,i went around to have a look. Their life is really different from us. For first,of course,they got no parents for them to call "Papa or Mama". *Heart broke* Then their place to sleep and bathroom,place to dry their clothes,playground,toys are all different. Their life is simple. *touching* How blessedness we have. We should appreciate every moment with our parents,appreciate every call "Mum and Dad". Thanks God,i learned much more than a lesson today. =)

Then,it's waterfalls time!!! Wahaha,siok nia. The water is refreshing,my mind,my body,my eyes,my brain,my soul,and my spirit. Darren,Jerry and me lying on the rock where is just nearby the waterfalls(where the water flows very fast),we took a short nap there. Due to we went up to a quite high place,there are few people. Wind blows,leafage flying around,water go through every part of my body,quite and i can even hear water flowing,bird singing. How nice is my feeling after awaken,it did refresh me. Then we played around at there. Just had a nice time at the waterfalls. (p/s:The highlight is while we catch the male frog which is really big and at that time,it was doing "something" to another female frog. LOL..)

Time flied fast,time to go back. Then we went to Sunway to have our dinner. Drank white coffee!! ^^ How nice~ Then we chatting all the way while back.

P/S: Please appreciate every moments we have with our family. =)

Prayer:Lord,i thank to you for bringing us safely all the way and we got parents. May God bless all the children at orphanage there. Especially the kid(i think he is just around 8 years old) who is going to face his operation in the coming Dec. Amen. =)

New Day! New begin! =)

2009-10-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

Spider-man,who name himself as well,and people call him as poet-man too. Well,tell honestly and seriously,u just CAN'T imagine how CRAZY he is!

Half an hour before Muet speaking test started. Thanks God! I got the easiest tittle with the best point to talk about. =)

Name: Hunter Xuan
Age: Ancient ages
Details: Appears near around BM,Lower Six Science B.
-Used to hunt for anything.
-Melee type Hunter.
-Damage with using blade.
-Atlante-an man eater.

My new identity,has shown above,Hunter Xuan. Haha,it's just a joke,fun at taking those strange photo anyway. Hmm,This week,i really collapse. I mean,not only physical,but also mental and faith. Ya,i have met some troublesome situation. Now,i think i can really cool down myself and know what had happened to me. Think TOO MUCH! (It doesn't mean what i thought is meaningless,it do remind me and become my lesson.) Yea,that's what i did. I really don't want to accept the fact,anyway,accepted has made me feel better,much much better. Thanks God. I'm fine now. =)

On this Wednesday,it's our Muet Speaking Test day. I didn't feel like nervous at all. Somehow,i did before entering to the exam room. Lol! My sound was shivering as i want to continue my individual presentation. I take 0.32 second to stay cool and continue. Haha,it's so fun to hear that all of the participates speak with their shivering sound,of course included me. In discussion,we have 10 mins to discuss about the most effective way to save our money spending on foodstuff which is increasing nowadays. I'm the only one who can take care of the time(they didn't wear watch!),fine,it's just a raise-hand job. Anyhow,i found it too fake while i gave signal to them that time is almost up. They all suddenly turn to agree me. Believe me,and also believe my eyes,i saw examine was about to laugh but stay steady and he and she (two examiners) laugh after we went out. LOLZ! I was feeling so paiseh. We are not only testing our English,but also our acting skill. Haha.

Then,for the lesson past few weeks and days,i have learned smtg anyway. Thanks God i m awaken. Things must be balanced,abo u will collapse in this world of lie like me. =)

p/s:Sun still shines on me,why should i switch off my light in my room? Just go out to breath and let the sun shine on you. Warm and fresh. How well the creation of God. =) Don't waste your days which can be meaningful and beautiful in depression. Don't lose the chance to enjoy ur life,appreciate the chances and hold it tide,you are the special one and only one. And do believe,anger and depression can be overcome by love and hope. =)

Suffering...

2009-10-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

IBM,this is the place where i have started my new life at there. I do believe,for now,i have experienced something different. Recalling my secondary school's life,it's simple and easy. Game + eat + sleep,is there any life can more simple than this? Of course i enjoy it. Time flies so fast that i couldn't even realize time is passing...And it will never return. Some people said that life is easy. How life is that easy? Life is not easy! It's hard,especially if u want to become a Good Man.Of course i m not saying i'm the one,but at least,i m trying my best to.

Now,1a.m,i m still staring on this screen,as tomorrow i got a English Muet speaking test. Recalling,what i have done. How my life goes on... Listening to my breathing,i finally got my time to stay peace. I'm really sorry my friend,being a temper friend,emotional friend... I think i already knew where is problem,but i got to take some time to handle it. For me,now i m really going to become a mad person. Pressure from study,from friends,from situation,from life,from family...The most important is the pressure from myself which i really can't effort it. Demand on myself from me? It's impossible to reach and the worst is i knew what is right and what i should do. I'm so blame full to myself as i m the master of me also. Am i mad? Some answers me is 'Yes,Xuan,u think too much ady.','So i don't have to think? Just ignore those things? I don't want to be a fool.' I answered myself in deep of my mind. Some says 'No,Xuan,u did well somehow,but then u can't change the fact,so that's it.What u can do is to accept it,or else,learn to ignore it.'

Hmm,for now,i believe i m lost. So do i have to think? No matter i know or i don't,what i can do is just ignoring. And the most important thing is,i can't control my emotional while looking at those things. It affected me,very much... I really felt exhausted.I think this is the reason why i get mad nowadays. Apologize to all my friends again here. For next time,i will learn to close my eyes,prevent looking it. It's hard,it's tough,but i will learn,and i must learn! Time to sleep. It's about 1.15am now. Good night my friends.

Prayer: Lord,with your wisdom,help me to solve this situation. And please help all those students who are having Muet Speaking tomorrow and also the day after tomorrow. Amen.

p/s:It's time to slow down my footstep,feel the seconds,i need time. =) Peace~

Haiz's day In IBM

2009-10-02T20:15:00.000-07:00

Kok Sheng,the one blackie who stand beside me,has left us to go back to his secondary school to continue his form 6. He is the best basketball player among our friends. We have lost a good player on court. Anyhow,blade doesn't always benefit on one side,he is quite a noob player in DotA,so we have lost a food in gaming. Well,wish u all the best at Perlis there. We'll meet again in GG. =)

At a normal month,a normal week,normal day,in a normal school,with some normal friend... Ya,everything happens just like normal. But it's not for me. In there few days,i really miss my old classmate,they know me the most,they know how am i. Of course not fully understand of me,but we can have joy always,smile together,we can understand,at least,what we r talking. At there,i think i have changed. Changed to a person who doesn't talk always,of course i think it's good,at least not talking bullshit. With this,i have changed from a person who always like to share about my life and talking all over the day to a person who trying to be serious in his study,stop talking bullshit,and as well,my friends around me will not know about me. The situation is,they don't know who am i,i can really joke u know? I can really play madly,but i m just choosing the right time,not like before,playing around the clock. So...what m i facing now is they go out,for example gathering,they won't tell at least i ask. And some activity,even i ask,they won't tell me. At first to IBM,we know each other,well,even just a short time,but we have understood each other much don't we? I thought we have become a "friend".I'm asking a friend who is not only say 'Hi' and 'Bye'. Of course,the thing is not that serious yet,if i take it easy. I care about,that's why i feel upset. Well,i know this will over soon. What i can do is just doing my own job and wait.

Yesterday,went outing with my really friends,they told me not to worry,it's just a period that u can do nothing,but just to wait. Kinda Emo these days,but i feel much better after talking to them,i can feel my shoulder becoming lighter a bit. Thanks my friend who console me. =)

p/s:For friend who is studying in IBM or knows who are they,i don't wanna this to be known by anyone who is included above there. I hope this can really be kept well. Thanks. =)

Ntg special~

2009-09-15T09:20:00.000-07:00

Well,ntg special happen in my nearly life in IBM school or family,either. For the coming holidays,thurday War Game(which is known as Paint Ball),and Sunday,we're going to Gurney to celebrate Father's birthday. Before this,i m seeking for real activity which can really put my hair down. Well,it seems a good idea. Will try to enjoy it.

Recently,i didnt really study hard for my chem,and physic too. Hmm,gotta take this holidays to cover back. Digging holes for my head later. Kaka~ Today,went to Sunway with Happy Tan,Lanson and Darren. For my first time,i went to Parkson to buy T-shirt myself with no family members to give suggestion or may be,decide for me. Satisfied,because i have bought two T-shirt which i really like it. It's nt expensive either due to Sales there. I'm going to wear one of them to Penang for the celebration. Can't wait for the day! Wahaha~

On the other hand,i found that i m acting like a involker. Involking talking skills,joking skills,writting skills,acting skills,and also... (left it blank,bcuz still got a lot to fill in. xD) Well,i don't really think that is bad but in the other way,i learn what i think is good ,and ofcourse,i can't totally ignore what is really bad for me. I found that nowadays,i don't really can control my friend,named Moody. I will just feel like a sudden-moody. Don't ask me why,i can't answer it to myself too. During these moments,i used to remember some factors which might not be probably be the reason why am i moody,but still,i remember it. Factors included:

When i see some doggie face showing to G,and also shaking their tail which they might think can get more rewards with acting "cute"
G compress their sound to below 10 bells,which they think that it can probably attract guy's attention while B actually nearly can't hear them.

Hmm,it's just two factors,the rest i don't wanna to state it out. It's too horror~Well well,let's end here. =)

Back to there again...

2009-09-05T09:22:00.000-07:00

Finally,the long long holidays have just finished. I was not happy during the holidays which are nearly 2 weeks for me as i fall in sick. No matter how hard i tried to drink more water,my body temperature kept on stationary,it doesn't feel like moving. So i gave up. What a lame sickness. *Sighs* Sick,u know how much "ma huan" u brought to me? U know how much food i missed? Damn u! =.=

Thanks God,after 4 days,i m fine now! Wahaha... Recently,i don't feel like writing blog,don't ask me why,if i would tell,i won't tell here too. Not because of secrety,but because of "ma huan". Lolz. I'm kinda lazy nowadays. I think i get affected by my sickness,i slept too much. Well,for myself,for my study,either,have to catch up as soon.Kambateh! ^^

p/s:Under the sun,there is shadow,moving with no head,seeking for the target. Well,he won't catch it,yet,he found hopeless. He tells the shadow:"Why don't we be friend? =)" and i said:"My pleasure.=')"

Long day and a long way...

2009-08-24T10:24:00.000-07:00

It has been so long since my last post. Probably 3 weeks ago,it was still in July,e'thing seems nice,nothing happened,yet,it is the best thing. Well,it's quite shocked for me to hear that my grandpa has passed away,even i can sense that a month ago. It's really heartbreaking while i saw my grandpa lying on his bed,his eyes were closed,just like sleeping as normal. Still,it is really like sleeping,but somehow,this time,it's a bit different from normal,he is now sleeping always,and forever... During thoes rainy days,all of my family members,included my cousin were crying all over the funeral. They cry,and stop,and continue crying,and stop,while 1 cry again,all of them cry together again,again and ag-again... *Signs*

Well,let's stop here. After that,i back to my school as usual. That's ton of works waiting me to finish up them. Then,i m the Vice President of Extreme Sport Club in our school,quite a hard job for me,but for me,a experienced man(even i m the first time to be Vice P),it shl b no problem! Wahaha!

2 weeks later,there was another matter that really shocked me. That day was monday,as usual,i should be at school before 7.45a.m,but i was late that day. When i stepped into class,i was glad that Mr.Mohd ( My PA teacher and also,he is my principle) was not in the class. *Evil Laugh* I will not be asking lots of question. Then,cheese(my monitor who used to make jokes always) told me that Fung Chia(a cute girl who sit just behind me) has passed away. Hmm...I looked at her place,well,it's empty,but still,i knew it's a joke,so i was waiting him to laugh. But then...he didn't laugh,not even smile... I started looking at students who sit beside her,they were crying! OMG! i'm the first time to experience friend who just around me passed away! Gosh,she was fine last friday,and then... After all,almost all of our classmates went to her funeral,but not for me,due to my grandpa had just passed away. That's ntg i can do,but i did pray to God. May God bless her and her family.

Well well,lasty,i have not been updated my blog for 3 weeks! Lolx,quite a long time huh? kaka~Now,my holidays started! So so fast! Tuesday ady! I will try my best to update my blog. =)

Stepping into August~

2009-07-31T11:15:00.001-07:00

Well well,stepping into August,i had finally finished my exam and i hung out with friends for "D" for that night. A nice night hang out however,result doesn't matter,but everyone enjoys it. =) Tons of stones dropping down my heart and i smile. Obliviously,i have gone to BM for studying for 4 months already,time really passes like bullet huh? Just a wink,4 months have passed.

Well,thanks God,my result was not that bad,not that good too,reminding me to put more efforts on it. E'things seem nice,but just math(2),i did serious mistakes and total i lost my 24 marks for nothing! How careless am i? I can't even believe my eyes while i receive the paper. Feeling sad,but anyway,thanks to friends who concerned me,i m fine. =) It's just a little test,i dont get mad yet. Haha...

This week passed very fast that i couldn't even turn out my mind.Heard that there are quite a few of students in BM (Not IBM) have been influenced by the virus,A(H1N1). Every students in IBM was asked to wear mask to go to school by Friday,for thoes don't wear will not be allowed to enter the class. Everyone was wearing the mask today,feeling not bad too,haha,too bad,forget to take a photograph. Lolz,everyone was quite today due to the cotton which blocking their mouth. Somehow,the mask really annoys me from breathing,i found it hard to breath normally as the mask cover up all my nose. -_________-''

p/s:A cheerful heart is good medicine,but a crushed spirit dries up the boners.(Someone told me this,thanks,i like it. =D)

Toh Kun hiking

2009-07-24T19:46:00.000-07:00

22 July 2009,Toh Kun hiking organised by Extreme sport club from IBM was held successfully.Upper six students,who were our seniors,had an interview to us who is interested to join their committee,i went and so that day i didnt be the participant,but be the committee of Extreme sport club.It is the second biggest club in IBM and there were more than hundreds of people went for the interview,i m one of the lucky out of 36.

Dawn at 5,i woke up and had my 'cool' bath.Everything i had prepared for today was put into my waist pack,and i began to my journey to IBM.Gathering at IBM before we went to Toh Kun mountain,seniors had a meeting with all the committee,telling us what should we do and arrange the transport for us. My mission was helping them to tick participant's name according to class and record the time for first three runners. At about 7 a.m,we reached Toh Kun and straight away we went up to the mountain.The road is quite inclined but somehow,i found it is easy for me.We had fun and jokes along the way with the seniors,they all are quite funny and friendly.After reaching to the top of our station,station 4,we are all exhausted.

Well,suddenly my 'emo' mood comes up to my mind and i took this picture,which when i was taking,everyone laugh...Lolz. At the end of this event,we all cleaned up the scene and back to the strating point of Toh Kun.At there,Mr.Micheal,who is our MUET teacher,held a speaking oral at there asking people to speak in english(tittle given) to everyone including the monkeys.Lolz,that's a highlight thing in our Toh Kun hiking.After giving the prizes to winners,again,we cleaned up the scene and stepped back to IBM.

Overall,it was held very nice,no people injured.It took a morning from me.Anyway,i had to continue my tuition at afternoon later from 2.15pm to 6.30pm. It's really a tiring day.At that night,i slept after taking my dinner,at about 9pm something.Then i woke up at three,to study my math(2),due to the test on friday.Well,the test is not that hard as i thought,but i don't really can master it,kinda sad...Anyhow,it has past. =) Works more hard for the next coming test!Hehe...

p/s:That day was a normal day,everything happends normally,included...,as normal,and it is normal and should be normal. =) Thanks God for the wisdom.

A long long way...

2009-07-18T08:37:00.000-07:00

Since i was small,i used to enjoy the wind during the evening,it makes me smile. =) As i have grown up,i wonder thoes happy time where they gone. I sat under the tree which i played at there when my height was still only 117cm.Thinking...Where are they? I looked upto the sky...
WIsh has just passed above me,i lost the chance to make a wish.Somehow,i wonder why people used to say that u make a wish when u see the meteor,the wish u made will become true.It doesn't make sense to me...
Wind blows against my cheek,comfortable makes me nap.Looking upto the sky again,the stars confused me,it recalled me,again and ag-again...I decided to find out what is it really recalling me.I began my journey with nothing.After a long long footsteps,i stopped infront of a sign board. "Boring" I turned right,and i found this boring high way,i don't know how long is the way,no,i should say,i can't know how long is it and what is infront...
Night coming,i just let my legs take a rest.The night seems to be silence.I know,I'm not alone...
With moody,probably my new friend,we started our new journey towards the infinity,again...
Swing and keep swinging,i found another sign board. "Hope"

This week,there is something wrong with me,my new friend,Moody,sticks to me always. With this new friend,there is something i found and i lost.Well,my mind collapsed this week,thousand of words sinked inside my heart and stucked. The pressure of exam and RBR are really hard to bear it.When all the bad things wave to me,i can't even say a single word.At that time,i think i can understand the words told by someone,the most sadness happens,u will cry with no tears,i did.I apologize to all my friends here.No matter what it is,please forgive my anger and bad temper this week.

p/s:Sometimes,relationship between human is really weird,u seem to catch it,somehow,u r still hanging. Well,still a long long way for me to learn.Indeed...

2009-07-10T19:17:00.000-07:00

So...i think catching rat is fun.They are all smiling while putting the rat into the tin which contains of something sopor...><'' Killing has just begun...

Pity the rat being nailed on the white board...The operation will be carried on soon by thoes cruel... =P(Left) Father joked with Li Ho(Right),seems they r quite enjoying the operation huh? =D

After the operation,he seems feeling not well,kesian for the rat...being cut and observered,then threw into the basketbin behind the street... T^T

The first person fainted? Nah,he was just getting too tired and slept. Hmm...looks cute? haha... =P sorry Lu Ping~

(The path of operating the rat is not shown out,it's just too violent and cruel,scare that u may eating something like hotdog or curry?xD)

This wednesday,bio classmate is having their first time to operate the rat.Of course i will be the first to be the observer. Hehe,thinking that was fun...Well,in the process,i can see that girl is really cruel.At starting,they are still acting scare of killing the rat.BUT,after they nailed up the rat,they operated it just like cutting a bean curd.The process made me not feeling well too as they 'play' with it's organ and brain...

Well well,stop it,i know u r not feeling well too. =P This week was terrible busy.Almost everyday,I start my class at 7.45a.m and end at 5-6p.m. After going back to home,my mental will just collapse for an hour. Then gotta rush on my stuffs...Sometime,i got no time to take a breath too...Anyway,i will be fine,i believe i can handle it well with determination. =)

Next week is going to be our first exam week,feeling nervous,don't know how is it,and i heard that our result will be sent to out house through postman not us! Lolz,how if i get a bad result? Hmm...Tons of things i got to memory and formula too! Hundred of Trigonometry formula are not that easy to memory all huh...Well,i will do with all of my best.=D

p/s:Life isn't for happy,isn't for eat,isn't for other,but life is for the righteous.

July new post

2009-07-04T20:53:00.000-07:00

Ya,walking into July makes me feel stress. As we learn physic,tension = mg if it is placed vertically. Somehow,i think the 9.81kg/ms2 (gravitational force) is killing me. With the Weight(m) which is becoming more and more heavier on my shoulder,i found my legs are shivering. Wondering,can i withstand the weight? In fact,i'm not that tough,every subjects i can handle well as i did all the revision and homeworks,add on extra-homeworks,but what's actually making me tough is chemistry. Hoping someone can really teach and lead me to a better situation than that i m having now.

In the past week,i felt so 'tension',it was just like binding on me. A day,there are 24-hours,i used 6 hours to sleep,more than 10hours in school,time left is for my revisions and homeworks. Well,a tough week has passed and i m still standing,i will be tough too. =) Thanks God. At Friday,Chun fetched me to Sunway and we had a nice movie(Ice Age) there,it was funny. =) With friends,I really enjoyed that night outing,thanks buddy. *palm*

Saturday,i went to Penang Aie-port to send off my cousin brother,i felt so down...We used to play together,bath together,eat together,learn together,share tales together,games together,outing together,sing together,happy together,down together....Now,he is going to Australia to continue his study. Sigh,for the growing of us,and now it's time for him to go further...He is really a good cousin brother,he taught me a lot of things,thanks him here.

Prayer:Lord,bless Alex can reach Australia safely.Everything will just smooth to him.Thanks you,my God,for giving me friends. =) For the christ,amen.

p/s:Friday night outing was a unforgotten night. =)

2009-06-26T10:41:00.000-07:00

They are all my cousin,except the first 2 girls,who are my sister Wendy,and eldest sister Annie.Yup,u r right,their hands show the date of the celebration. 2009/6/25. =)

"So much has changed,"such an idea comes up to my mind.Looking at them,we are all grown up.No more childish things between us...

Just sent my sister,Wendy,to Air-port,saying Goodbye to her really makes me sad...We have played since i still cant even stand up.We used to fun together,eat together,fights,cry,worry,excited...And,she is now going to Sabah UMS and continue her study at there.Next meeting would probably be the end of this year.I will miss her. =)

prayer:May God bless my sister,Wendy,will reach Sabah safely.Everything will just smooth to her.God,please lead her on as she will be alone at there.Thanks,for the christ,amen.

p/s:We will no longer meet again. =) I believe!

何谓朋友？

2009-06-23T11:23:00.000-07:00

我并不是圣人，也会时常犯错，写这篇文章不是为了教训人，而是想分享。之前，我写过一片关于朋友的文章，我想重复多一次：

“相信每个人都有朋友吧？以上便是我中学中最要好的朋友！我相信他们也是这样想的。神，赐给了我们朋友，因为我们需要。对，我们需要朋友，朋友让我们吐谈心中的愉快与不愉快，与我们一起成长，学习，鼓励，支持...”

朋友之间的是友情，而问题是，你的朋友是否出现在你的友情里呢？那绝对是存在的。在这世界上，某某些的歪理论，让许多人认为，朋友是拿来利用的，他们的眼里，没有利用价值的人就不是朋友。如果你因着这样的现象，也改变了你的看法和想法，那你和他们有什么两样呢？好，如果是这样，我们就必须的更谨慎的交朋友了。另一个说法就是，必须更谨慎的交友情了。朋友，你可以有很多，不过，那儿是否有友情，那就不知道了，谁知道？你自己了。

换个角度，朋友所谓的帮忙，是否利用呢?许多人都分不清楚，所以才会产生那么多的误会。如果一位朋友，平常没事不会找你的，突然登上你的三宝殿，需要你的帮忙，这是利用吗？严格来说，这是利用，如果你是一位负面想法较重的人的话。其实，这可算上是社交的一种，认识他，哪知哪天需要他的帮忙啊？而你帮我，我帮你，达成双赢的局面，不是很好吗？利用和帮忙，真得那么重要吗？要怎样分辨，课本是不会教，是看你怎样想了。而另一种朋友，就是只有帮他，当你需要他的帮忙时，他却不帮的，那你就要小心了，可能他是真的不能帮，而不是不要帮，那还好。如果他是能帮，却不帮，这时候你有两种选择，一，下次不帮他（就算能帮），二，大量的帮他（要看程度）。这两种选择只是例子，如果你觉得你的做法会更加明智的，也是可以的。（请确保那是明智的情况下）

所以，什么是有友情的朋友呢？他们会爱你（提醒大家，这是朋友的爱，请把它想得健康和简单），可是这样的朋友会有吗？我相信是不可能的，这世上哪会有朋友可以满足你呢？两个人相处，总要相让，自己都顾不好了，怎么能顾好你呢？这样，如果你因为他们的不足，而断定他们不是你的朋友，你是否失去了这位好友呢？这其实也代表了，朋友必须一起成长，才能互相的鼓励，学习，而你自己，就必须学习独立，这世上没有永远的敌人，也没有永远的朋友的，你总要多和别人接触，了解一下别人的经历，也须多交朋友。当朋友多时，难不免会约出来相聚吧？而这时，正是一个很好的交流时候，互相分享，学习。然而，这样的分享，要达到好效果，自然出来相聚的人最好是少了，说穿了，多人的聚会多数都是瞎扯，因为第一个人说的事情，第十个人未必适合吧？自然话题就必须选择了，那还有什么意思呢？例子，和十个人出门，问候完就可以拍拍屁股走人了？就算真的有时间，你可以问得了多少个？效果会好吗？而和三个人出门的你，问候他们，是个人都可以有都一点的时间来说说他们的经历和想法。少一点人，也比较好集中，好说话。所以，我们是无须为朋友没约你而感伤心，只是还没轮到你。

而我们身为朋友的，很应该在不同的场合，有不同的身份吧？例子，我和我的朋友，他刚从国民服务回来，我作为朋友的，驾车载他到槟城，和一群不认识的人，过了整天，甚至他们的事情还得我来策划，带领，那天的我很成功地扮演了我的角色，做朋友的，还有什么好计较呢?我的朋友甚至告诉我们四年的交情还不及他们三个月来的友情，请试想想我的感受，不过又怎样呢？我付出，是为了回报吗？当然，每个人都不想被说帮忙是为了回报，所以都不觉得是，可是往往人会在无意间犯下这样的错误。最重要是错而能改，男人大丈夫，没什么大不了的，大不了东山再起，然而最怕的是不肯承认错误，而不悔改，那么永远都是错的了。所以有回报，我们应该高兴，没回报，也没什么的，反正没期待。=) 当然，要时常检讨自己，或许自己已经不知不觉地犯错了。

然而，别总是看出别人的不是，而忘了自己，请诚实的面对自己，自己是否是一位好朋友？肯为朋友付出吗？想回报吗？肯忍耐吗？肯的意思是包含心甘情愿的。自己是否有和大家一起进步呢？慢不是问题，最大的问题是不肯进步。然而如果你本身不愿意进步，你又好意思要大家被你一起停顿吗？

所以结论，你是否一位好朋友？当你是了，他是你的朋友吗？当他是了，那还有利用与帮忙之分吗？那儿就只会有爱，你对朋友的爱，包括付出，忍耐，恩慈，不嫉妒,凡是相信，凡是包容，和等等...总是有多角度来看待事情，你就会看到不一样的东西了，站在朋友的立场想想，想法自然会更理智和成熟。想成为一位好朋友，多么的不简单啊，不然的话，古人怎会一直晃着头，道说：人生得一好友，死而无憾啊。这句不是说可以死啊，这只是诗人夸张表达的方式，是说好友难得啊，自然的，好友更难做，加油吧，大家。=)

p/s:在人的关系中，事先了解进入关系的那个人是很重要的，不只是了解你的伴侣，你必须先了解自己。如果你连自己都不喜欢与自己相处，那你如何期待别人呢？我要请你去思考这个问题。你是否有像希望别人对待你那样对待自己？如果你对待自己，并没有像希望人家对待你那样，那你永远也无法改变事情的状况。你的行动是强而有力的思想，因此，如果你没有用爱和尊重来对待自己，别人也难以爱和尊重你。因为你不能代替人思考和感觉，你的职责就是自己。其实打开心灵，让神爱你，让你自己也可以爱你自己，这难道不是更好吗？

p/s:珍惜一起欢乐的时光，不让遗憾与悲伤成为你生命中的不速之客。

Wendy 21th B'day~

2009-06-23T09:47:00.000-07:00

All of my cousin are there. =) total=16...All lengzai lenglui~ lolz...kaka~
So...it's a fool idea...1,2,3 and 4. kaka~ Wishing Wendy Ang a Happy Birthday~They are all born in Dragon year~ so 5 dragons there...wao~~

My siblings~Jaker,Annie,Wendy and Micheal~

Last piece of Salmon fish~ Felt so EMO suddenly...

It's about 6.30p.m,we began our way to Penang Coffee Island.There was a celebration there,it was my second sister,Wendy's 21th B'day.We had a great party there,which my cousin had all attended.After having delicious meals,we chatted at there and played at there.(taking tons of photo everywhere~)

Lolz,we met many lenglui there,somehow,they are look-able,but not talk-able,becuase parents are all there.lolz,and i think i won't talk to them if there is a chance also.So...just forget about it.lolz...Today,i missed my physic class,hopefully he wasn't teaching something hard...haha~have to work harder next time. I will be fine~ ^^

p/s:Will upload more pictures next time,they are all in camera,quite lazy to take all it out.

Hour in school

2009-06-23T02:12:00.000-07:00

Picture of memories~

Just went to Tunku Abdul Rahman,which was my school for six years,students at there are still acting childish,and some is even more than childish,can be said that is foolish...Looking at them,they are shadow of us,but somehow,they are even worse.BGR between them is not new,but a game for them.(They might not think so because they are one of them,for face,they reject our opinion.) Feeling sad...

Happy,to see ma old's friends,Hui Lin,Mei Ling,Man Yan,Yee Heng,Jia Wei,Lee Yee,Ying Ying and Ling Yan. After buying some stuffs,decided to have a walk through ma school,it has become more beautiful and colourful than before...Memories flows through my mind,every part,every corner of the school...Feeling sad again,being childish and silly for so many years. Well,on the way back,thinking...there is some goods being an innocence boy too,what we gotta do is only for happy,no responsibility,no worry,dont have to care too much,everythings undergo slowly,everythings follow our mood...No,that's not a lifestyle i would like my life going on. Just breath and eyes look for the infinity future,come on,there is still a long long way to go...I don't bother with the blesses of God. =)

p/s:I can do anything through christ who strengthen me. Thanks God.

Strange...

2009-06-22T18:28:00.000-07:00

Looking at the blue sky,i enjoy the wind from no where."Hmm...what a sunny day,today is going to be a hotday,"i guess.Listening to the music,the music may sing the moment with me.Breathing deeply,this make me sleepy.Wiggling leg in the bed...No way,have to wake up my slugglish body.

How fast the time pass... Argh,24 hours aren't enough.Wishing to have more than 24 hours perday,'impossible' word is given.Haiz...not in mood of writing blog,stop here,Cya my friends.

p/s:My mind is so blank now...Don't know what to do... ><"

Lame night~

2009-06-20T12:54:00.000-07:00

I strongly believe that every of my friend is sleeping like a pig now.Well,you are right! I can't sleep... i just cant believe my eyes that,it is about 4 A.M and i m still sitting in front of the box...Somehow,Silence of the night makes me comfort~
After going back to BM,everythings back to normal again,school,homeworks,friends,idiot,dawgs,foods...It was a busy week,fully filled with the homework and homeworks~
Anyhow,suddenly i feel sleepy,lols,i gotta sleep~for my busy Sunday~ Night everyone,sorry for breaking the silence of night~ >"<

p/s:Friends might be friend if there is no friendship between them. =) (Don't misunderstand what i have mentioned,i have mentioned nothing,and it was just a idea to write an essay or a poem to wreak my own feeling~relax la~ ^^)

Time to go...

2009-06-13T20:06:00.000-07:00

"Tik...Tak...Tik...Tak..." Watching the clock,second and seconds...Again,minute has passed.Haizz...I'm still doing nothing.Wondering,what had happened to me these few days? Am i being cursed? No no...It's because the ending holidays. The most sadness isn't going back to school.In fact,i felt that should be happy,it's time again for me to study HARD! Just,it's little tough for me due to the funeral class for science class in IBM,i have to take the tuition class on Saturday,it makes me difficult to go home everyweek.Well,what can i do just to accecpt and face it! Come on,i know i will and i can adapt it. =)

The main reason is because i have to part with my friends.After this holidays,i will be very busy and the next meeting ( i think) will be at the end of this year.Friends here,i might seldom come back,means i will have to stay at there if my time is too rush.Well,i need a friend to talk to...(Prayer:Lord,i need a friend who i can talk to...thanks,for the christ,Amen)

Today,Sunday,last day in my house,i'll miss my parent,family members,internet(friends),friends here,refrigerator,foods,and AIR-CONT!! -____-''

p/s:Be stronger,because have to,

Be tough,because need to,

Be adamancy,because ought to.

Good luck,all my friends. =) cya~

Busy Friday~

2009-06-13T19:27:00.000-07:00

Niel and me were in the boat on the way back to our car. =)

Alex,my cousin,he is quite a good man and thanks to him to be our trip ranger. ^^
Pantai Kerachut! The sea is clean,it's quite a famous camping site for young.Try it next time. =P

At the first station,we took a rest and the water from water fall is clean and cold~ Niel smile~ xD

Well,we went to Pantai Kerachut on friday.It's not that hard to climb over as i have thought.We took almost 2 hours to reach the beach.I skipped the journey. =P Then,we took a rest at there and everyone was enjoying the food(which i woke up at 7.30 and cook them),i hope them really enjoy it.=) At about 4pm,the boat came and ended our climbing.

p/s:I'm going to BM later in the evening,i might not be able to update my blog that always,i'll miss u all,my friends.=)

Ending Holidays~

2009-06-11T02:20:00.000-07:00

Well...these days i have spent lots of time to go to Penang to look after my grandpa,he is fine now,thanks God.After the camp in Tanjung Bungah,i have been sick for 2 days,i m fine now.=)(Thanks to ZLing who wishes me to be healthly.Wish her too here.) Then i go to penang around these few days.I have not even touched my book for a week edy! Omg! =.='' I m gonna put more effort and oil into my engine.

The ending holidays,i don't actually like that feeling,my holidays haven't ended,but i feel that it is ended...Well,my fault.My melody is undergoing a big change.Because after these holidays,there will be a no time for me to play anymore.IBM(my school now) is planning to have a tuition class at saturday,means i m going to stay at there untill Sat,then go back to there again at Sunday,it's really boring and bored! Anyway,i will do my best for it.=) Come on,Xuan,time won't wait anyone,included u,better armed urself,it's time to fight! FiRE! hehe~

Prayer:Help my grandpa who is now in hospital to relief his pain and sickness,and also my mum,who is now exchausted for rushing here and there and worry about my grandpa.Friday,may God be with us.everythings will be fine and just like what i have planned.Thanks God.For the Christ,Amen.

p/s:After this holiday,i may nt be able to on9 and blog that often,i feel sorry to my readers here.=)

Monday in the hospital

2009-06-08T19:21:00.000-07:00

Monday,congrats to Lakers(Kobe Bryant,Gasol,Odom) here winning the second match in Final.After watching the NBA final at Niel's house,it's time he got to go back to Penang. Then i followed my mum to go to Penang too to visit my Granpa who is now sick in the hospital.Before we went to to his room,we had a breakfast at the canteen,their food is quite healthly and taste good. =)

We talked to him 1 by 1,i had told him about my life now,my study,my dream,memories when i was still a kid,and bla bla bla...Then,he had to take the medicine and the nurse needs some one to console him.Doubtless,i m the only boy who can handle this problem.Well,i did my best too.=) The 20 minits taking the medicine for me is just like 20 years.I was nearly to cry,it's really painful and i had to tell lies to my Grandpa.My heart was nearly broken,what i can do is only telling lies and looking at him...Somehow,i had to determine myself,finally,it was over...

Before going back home,we went to somewhere(coz i don't know where is it.Lolz...) and have a tea time there.

Prayer:My Lord,please help my Grandpa who is now suffering from the sickness.I wish that he can recover as fast as he can.Thanks.For the Christ,Amen.

p/s:Take care of your parent,your grandparent,and yourself too. =) Good luck my friends.

Beach day~

2009-06-08T18:17:00.000-07:00

I like this photo. =D

5 and 6 June,we had gone for a camp which was organized by NT church at Penang Tanjung Bungah Hotel.Well,we reached there and had our lunch there.Not bad,the food was quite out of my expectation.=) Then,we had a communion in the hall.With the older,i got the chance to hear about thier young experience which will properly be my advice,and their opinion to the young generation.WIth the younger,it's quite hard to communicate with them,they are shy and don't even speak,i was defeated.However,i did my best. =)

After checking into the room,there were two bed,and we got 5 have to share the room,Jerry,Hua Sheng,Mecaan,1 more boy,sorry i have forgotten his name,lolz,and of course,me.Well,don't care of that,let's enjoy first.=D We went to the swimming pool.Due to we r the host of the game to the adults later,we just swam for half an hour and i think i got cold from there.Lame! We had a good game at the beach there and adults were playing like child.Lolz...Then,Jao Jun.Jerry and i walked by the beach side and talked about nonsense along the way.I found out myself a bit not comfort.Somehow,i kept my footsteps to them.

Just before the dinner,i knew i had caught a cold,but i didn't realise that it was worse than i thought.I had caught a cold,fever,headache,giddy and cough.Terrible,it made me defaulting from the meeting at 8p.m.Well,after taking the panadol,i slept in the room for 2 hours.Just nice,i still could have my supper(Mc),Lolz...The other morning,we had our delicious and alimentation breakfast at the restaurant which just locates beside the beach.Hmm...What a beautiful sunrise!^^

Then,we packed and stepped on the way home.Somehow,we are teenagers!Instead of going home straight away,we went to Gurney.Night at the Museum 2 is quite a funny movie.=)

p/s:Back to home,i had taken the medicine and slept for 10 hours!^^v I m fine now. =D!!

WALAO EH!

2009-06-03T17:57:00.001-07:00

As the tittle has told u,there is smth serious has happened! This morning was quite different from the other as i decided to have jogging with Jerry.Well,he was sleeping like a pig and did not matter how i shouted out that loudly outside his gate like an idiot in the morning 6.55 a.m.'Jogging alone,'i said to myself.On the way jogging around my Taman,it recalled my young memories again...While playing with my old friends who doesn't relate to me now,the area we had played badminton oftenly...It doesn't important to me now,i must look forward and further...
"What a wonderful morning i had,"i was thinking while i was having a morning bath.I really enjoyed about it."Holidays!"=) Just as usual,i went to pasar and bought some delicious breakfast.Along the way,i hoped to meet some friend or may be who had played with me before,but at last,none...Well,just put my food in the busket and decided to go back.As u guys know,pasar is quite a hot place,so i decided not to wear the stupid helmet. Will i being caught? No no...it is impossible,because no one will wake up that early for catching the drivers like me in the pasar right? Ya,i m right,no one will catch people in the pasar,somehow,they are outside the pasar! Damn! Walao Eh! Who are they? The three man with black uniform stood in front of me,and beckon to me! Walao,so suai...
Nothing can do but have to let him check my lessen and IC,well,i did bring them out,somehow,i m scare for the saman which he kept asking to me:"Mau Saman tak?"Of course,i kept shaking my head to the police and suddenly i remembered my friends who had been 'saman' before,i quicky pleased them:"Abang,bagi chance,1 kali,first kali kena saja...plz...I m still a school boy..."
Wahaha!The police allowed me to go! Lolz,nothing had happened to a 18 years old boy who drived without his helmet at time 8.30 a.m. in Nibong Tebal on 04-June-2009! Thanks God! ^^~

p/s:Come on,my friends,don't be too sad that i didn't kena any saman,hehe~

Starting point of Holidays!!

2009-05-31T17:53:00.000-07:00

Standing at the starting point of Holidays,i take a deep breath,look straight through the way,thinking:"It's time to go." Ho-Ho-HOlidays!! I'm coming~
First,i plan to look after my grandpa during my holidays' journey,it doesn't have any other important things instead of taking care of him.Ya,he is quite old now,and now he is sick,quite worry...
Second,there is a camp at Penang Hotel which organised by Nt church,i m going to enjoy it. =)
Third,i m going to enjoy my homework and study during this free holidays,there are mountain of works i have to do.but still,i used to finish it with my joyful mood now. =) Thx God.

Hearing to the song,I'm Yours,my mood is not bad. ^^ typing the keyboard,i realized that the injury of my hand and my sprained leg doesn't look good.Lolz,it is still red. But then my hand which sprained together with my leg are fine now. =) Happy~ Going to take some rest time,then i will be back to basketball court. ^^ The Doctor is quite an old man,somehow,he is powerful and i m nearly to cry during the treatment,haha,well,i successful stopped my tears from my eyes. ^^v

p/s:Even there are Holi-days,do not forget our job,works,and identity,be a good child to ur mum,worry for them,be a good student to ur teacher,study and complete the hmwrks. ^^ Good luck.

Last on May

2009-05-30T19:35:00.000-07:00

Stepping into June,it reminded me...HOLIDAYS!!! Haha...being too excited,even cant sleep well in the night...My friends,u know how the time pass so slow that i cant even believe my watch...

i have been two weeks didnt post any blog,miss my blog! ^^ Nevertheless,i'm now here to see u all again. =) Somehow,i felt sad for my class changing.My new friends there,Lim Father,Lu Ping,Tan,Teh,Sasi,Zer Ling,i will begrudge u all. T.T wuwu~ Hopefully there is some miracle~

NOW! It's time to ready my holidays,wahaha...so excited...Redang,Langkawi,Penang,and bla bla bla!! Or whatever! I'm Coming!! kaka~

BTW,my grandpa is feeling not well now,i"ll pray for him,hopefullyhe will turn pink as soon as possible... ~.~

p/s:Excited for the camp and going to see some Long-time-no-C friends. ^^

Dreamer and dreams

2009-05-29T18:57:00.000-07:00

Who is the dreamer? and what is dream? ... Is it "good"? What do dreams mean?... Where do dreams come from? Is it from the sky? Can i find it if i can fly?...rain is coming,as tears too...

In our form 4 and form 5 poem,there is a "if" poem said that we can dream,but dont make dream our master.Ya,he is true.We can dream,of course,we can sleep right? Is dream means the video or may be pictures( not number) while we closed our eyes? Not really...Why should we dream then? Question mark is always given.Different people form different situations from different angles with different solutions might think of different meaning of dream.Right? or may be not...

Sometimes....someone....they work so hard for a dream,not even dreams...some may not even want to dream...Why...lazy and forget...Recalling my dream since i was trying to walk...i wished i can fly...Looking at the pure blue sky...it seems smiling at me...i smile back...too...as it seems welcoming me...

Ya,dream is just like sky.We can look at it and think of it all the time.Everyone should have their own dream,fight for it,work for it...Failure is just the path to success!Don't ever think of throwing ur towel...Achieve it,and make it the proudness of u...Everyone has their own sky...It won't be poluted by anyone except by ourself.You are the 1 who master ur dream and ur future.Just breath deeply and deeply...There is still a mountain to climb.

p/s:My friends,all the best...Good luck. =)

Wednes-Holiday~ ^^

2009-05-20T06:08:00.000-07:00

Darkness has come to Bm telling me that somewhere is having a serious funeral,beware!! xD~HOT noon huh? even the shirts are sweating~ sweat~~A joke is carried out by my notty english Teacher for students~Study when Hot in the night! You got no way but have to do like me if u wanna a comfortable place for study~ ^^ cheers~
Beware! Thats a room with Dangerous symbol where i m going in~scary~hehe...
when i stepped into the room,that's a totally different X-Ray's room from the imaginary room since i was still a kid.I thought it will have some machine such as a big television which can panetrate through my body...What a dissapointed room...cheh... =3=~
My leg which "terseliuh" has been scanned by X-ray,and Doctor told me"Your
overabundance fat layer has successfully protected your left leg,good job!" xD~

"Wow,Ee Shiuen has becoming better than before! Improved!"Sounds which go through my ears to my heart.It was sunday evening 7p.m. at Tunku Abdul Rahman Basketball's court which is in the small town,called Nibong Tebal.I decided to play more due to my strong ohm that day.Well,in the second match ,i guarded Jerry who is quite a fast-running player,i had to pay double attention on him.
"Foul!"my friend shouted.Ball passed to him and I dashed back to own defend position.A sudden blank splashed in my mind and i got to catch up Jerry who had already in front of me.The basket was just around me,i couldn't let him crossed over me!Stepping bigger than usual successfully brought me catching up to Jerry.Rising my hands and hopefully i could block his ball or may be i could at least block his vision from aiming the basket.I found out that i was getting lower when i tried to jump higher.No matter how my hands rised,my hands was still falling.In the moment of falling down,i still can remember the sounds of bone cracking.After falling on the ground,everyone came near to me and kept asking me what had happened.Well,my leg had sprained and i was gotta to leave the court.Somehow,after fews match,my leg was getting better i thought it's time for me to join them back.
Rain pitter-pattering on my car while i was driving to BM.I did not feel anything wrong and when i went up to my hostel and took off my shoes,i found that i was wrong! That is nothing wrong with my feeling but my brain! Hell,i knew my leg had sprained but i still decided to join back just because of feeling nothing.I should have to rest that time! Well,there is no use of talking too much nonsense. I took out what chinese called that as "Wind Oil" and i put it on my wounded place and chucked my leg.
"Hmm...what a nice morning sunlight!I like it."
Unexpectedly,i found out my leg was becoming bigger! No way,i went to Bm Hospital at that night and it took me 2 hours for the check up and enwasthement.Well,i met many strange things,which for me is strange but for others is normal,that i had never experienced.This is for addition,I met a guy who had an accident with his blood body being pushed to X-ray room.Scare me. =.=''
Well,after binding up for two days,which cumbered me when taking bath,walking down the stairs,to the school,and the most,in the toilet! Well,now my leg is fine and i decide to take it off.I can jump and run as normal but just not that high and fast.Thanks for taking care of me,my friends,i love u all. =) That God that I m fine now.
p/s:For friends who are now in college,form 6,matric,or somewhere that i might not be able to know,wish u all good lucks. May God bless u all. =)

Hammer Week~

2009-05-15T19:14:00.000-07:00

Well,as normal,i went back to BM's hostel and started my study again. =) Monday, i was fully concentrated into my physic STPM past year's questions,which are given to us for the whole week homework,but i decided to finish it that night. =) Out of the blue,my sixth sense lead me feeling uncomfort,it told me that something bad gonna happen..."Ring~Ring~" i picked up the phone,it was Daniel,he told me about her.
It is just like throwing a hammer to my head,storm striking me...How come? Such a big changes.I was blank for hours.But then,I prayed to God,thanks him,plans for us,i have faith with him,then i smile from the bottom of my heart. =) It doesn't matter the distance,we still can keep in touch,and i decided to find her by driving to there later soon. Hehe~after that,i fall asleep with my light-hearted. =)
Well,i m gonna say sorry to another her here,that i had some mistaken,hopefully she will not mind what i did.Haha...Well,this week is quite a dissapointed-week.I know i will be alright soon.I m thinking the one who is planning for us,this really put down my heavy stone.Relax~take it easy,He is always beside us,taking care of us and carring us to better life,He will often make us a way as he is faith and truth of life! ^^ +u my friend,the tests which are from God is affortable for us,don't scare,we can do it. =)

p/s:I will pray for u,too as other. =)

Weekly Report...xD

2009-05-08T09:46:00.000-07:00

特别篇；
这个星期我带了手提电脑，所以我决定来个每日报告，让大家看看我在大山脚的日子~^.^v

五月四日，

又回到学校了，带着充满盼望的心，哎…还是没变…
哈哈，今天在pengajaran am的时候，我连续睡了四次，哈哈，够力！因为老师教的实在是太闷了，所以我也很成功的扮演了渔夫的角色，钓了很多大鱼~ ^.^
回到宿舍后，才发觉，今天，我感受到了在过去的一个月里从未感受过的感觉，“好冷啊~”因为刚下了好大好大的雨嘛！爽到~哈哈，所以回到家后，很自然的，大家都跑去睡了，而我还是坚持做完功课，才进房间，眠一眠~ 哈哈…7.30pm 吃完晚餐后，回到了加油站(my little study corner~ =P)，“老板！大桶的！”哪知读到一半，楼下的房客不停的吵，还好良镇去说说他们…之后跑去了一楼的，找学长学姐，他们都很好，找他们聊聊天，之后就各自回去睡了~今晚会是很好睡的一晚~

五月五日，星期二，

昨晚的确很好睡，一觉到天亮，o(∩_∩)o…今天早上实在是超级冷的，或许用超级还不能说出那种冷感，是“冷爆！”我仿佛看见有雾在我们的冲凉房里呢！哈哈，真的不是开玩笑的，每个人进去之后都纷纷感冒了！之后呢，就各自上课去了，今天的节改了一点，因着“白哟”的老师生病了，可能他家没热水器吧？哈哈…于是我们的节提前了，而我便失去原先三小时空节的睡眠时间了。今天的我深深感受到中五与中六的差别，开始难了~ =S 五点，回到家后，立刻将理科的功课做完，哪知做到一题，做死都做不出，原来老师还没教，难怪…所以说啊，人生别越轨啊，否者真是自寻烦恼了，哈哈~重覆的了解老师所教的之后，就休息下咯…外面下着猫与狗的雨，不知人生乐观的良镇现在打球的怎样了呢？呵呵~再来是晚餐，这里有着非常好吃，美味可口，香喷喷，热腾腾，香脆口感十足的鸡扒饭，又很大包下，^_^…明天的课是十点，所以今晚读书就读迟一点咯~

P/S：今天早上我买了Sentry ward，一插下去便看到了它在我们窗外的屋顶上，还好发现得早，没有的话，我的一举一动都被他知道了…它是…OWL!!!! xD~ 说实在的，吓死我了！！

五月六日，三，阴天，

可恶，每逢下雨的前夕我都会头疼的，今天偏偏不下，头疼了整个早上，还好下午等我回到宿舍后下了，舒服了点，哈哈~今早得知振光（IBM的朋友）昨天打球时受伤了，满严重的，脚骨都歪了，他之后去了医院，照了X-Ray，包了扎，才一零吉罢了，哈哈，好便宜啊，因为那是政府医院嘛！下次我也去照爽！^. ^v…哈哈~刚刚读书到一半时，看出窗外，望着那漂浮不定的云，绿绿的山，感受了一阵凉风，深深的吸了一口气，叹了~伸伸懒腰，好舒服啊~不知远方的妈妈现在如何了？母亲节要到了哦~家人现在怎样了…朋友…说到朋友，真替他感到担心！他是一个很好的朋友，但说到读书…以他那样的成绩要读中六读得好其实是很难的，再加上他那懒洋洋的模样，真的得为他祷告了…之后跑进房间玩下大富翁四，就倒头大睡了。我明明有set闹钟的，睡醒时竟然九点了！还好事先有交代室友，睡醒就有炒饭吃了，o(∩_∩)o…哈哈~之后不知怎么的，应该是天气吧，不然又是那只虾（本人对虾敏感），我气喘了！哇佬，辛苦得不得了！还好我对气喘相当了解，立刻控制了呼吸气的规律，慢慢的缓和下来…好久没喘了，算算时间，也是对了，哈哈…进到房间后，开了mp3，想着休息一下下，哪知一开，竟是杨丞琳的缺氧！欠打！休息下后，回到“加油站”，继续读书！！今晚要好好睡咯~

P/S；因者本人有遗传性的气喘病，从小喘到大，哈哈，所以相当了解气喘。还记得上次我去了诊所，有位新来的护士，手忙脚乱的拿气喘药给我，正常呢，护士会拿着药，然后让你吸的，哪知那次是我自己拿，再自己吸，那护士傻眼~哈哈，医生笑笑的和她说不要紧，因为我已经是pro了，哈哈~嗯…下次本人打算出本书了！哈哈~

五月七日，四，

今天的节超轻松的，哈哈，三节而已，其他剩下的时间就用来做Statistic，每题差不多都要我二十至三十分钟，如果一个不留神算错了，意思是说如果做错了，你就必须用多一倍的时间了，那便是一小时了。
以下是在下为这可爱的数学写了点点的心声…
人非草木，难免有过，
过而知错，一小时也；
答案不同，奇事奇事；
查了再做，一小时也；
难免有时，不知有过，
过后才知，一小时也；
问君：何能不费一时？
君曰：
省时其一，不要做错，
其二，看答才做，
其三，当作没错，
其四，不如不做；
叹曰：
若已做错，何必改过？
若要无错，除非不做；
希望大家会喜欢~哈哈~今天我得花很多时间在这可爱又调皮的数学了。
做完后就快快的跑回去睡了~休息是为了走更长远的路~

而星期五呢，匆匆忙忙就回到家了，今天好累，早上八点到下午六点，开玩笑，马拉松都没那么甘苦... =.=''

以上是本人在IBM的生活，有兴趣去IBM读书的人可以参考下，哈哈~有什么不懂就留言吧，我尽可能答你。这星期说快不快，说慢不慢啊？哈哈...

分享快乐

2009-05-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

Hmm...she is a cute girl,and she is the only child who dare to take picture with me,haha...m i look like a child eater? =.=''
This what my station is about,Kinato...wakaka,children are all getting angry by my COOL explanation...hehe~ ^^v

我顾的station,我是host咧，一定要会先...不然面目全非...

A child who likes to make his own cute face to everyone...he is very cute! ^^

以上是我想和大家分享的快乐，和小朋友的玩乐，真的好开心。好啦，这个星期决定博斯两个部落，希望大家看得明白在下的中’s英语咯，哈哈…
现在是晚上十一点，刚听到大牛的妈妈晕倒了，实在是很担心她，愿神保佑她平安，她是一位很好的老师，没了她，我不能想象我现在是个怎样的人。今晚我们就各自在家睡咯。
在这个星期的我，有些感触，形容不出来，所以想了一些方法，而这里包含了中英文，加油；
Looking at the orange light leads my mind blank;
哎，感慨啊，感慨…
夜晚了，不知昨晚的猫是否还会再来…
下起雨了吗？
幻觉吧…
Water flows through my mind,
Washing away what I mind;
奇怪啊，奇怪…
夜，宁静得…让我松了一口气…
喝着让人回神的卡布吉诺…
Chewing my finger,
Missing the cat again…and again…
诺，信，祸，福，all come by tongue;
Command your teeth stick together at right time;
可惜啊，可惜…
I had met the time stealer;
And I don’t even know I m the one…
Felt console…I have met the right 1;
Willing to kindle for him…
Success and failure…again…and gained…
Win doesn’t mean success,
Thank for taking care of me;
How touch am I…
听，多，想，多，说，少；
少，烦，多，乐，多，福…
Way of knowing him, armoring myself;
Way of following him, confiding me;
Way of trusting him, strengthen me;
Way of his way, I have seen the truth way;
这，多多少少，表明了我的过去与现在，感谢神。
今天，五月三日，（过了十二点嘛），是老妈的生日，写到一半，跑出去，亲了她一下，他高兴得半命，却还做Pattern不在意，哈哈…写完了这篇，我快乐的四天回家之旅便快结束了，明天去教堂见证之后就大概要收拾了，那也代表我的鞋必须带着我的脚步，回到那将我的头活埋在书中的地方，愿神与我同行。愿神也保佑那些form6将开学的弟兄。我的弟兄姐妹们，生活并不简单啊，加油！=）
再见咯… ^.^v

P/L(please Look): 1）我们必须准备for everything，2）学习语言的智慧，3）不可对人有偏见，今天教堂学的，Hehe~ =D

开心！！ =D

2009-05-01T07:01:00.000-07:00

哈咯，一周一次的Xuan's life report 又回来了，哈哈，这个星期好容易过，才上课四天，虽然很心急回来，可是我还是很专心哦。好啦，IBM那儿，是发生了些事，不过相信神一定很快帮我决绝的。
上个星期，还未去大山脚时，读了一位朋友的部落格，很高兴，她没变，（或许有，可能我不知道），但我知道的，确实是好的。还好她对槟城的朋友有意见，没有就惨了，我还蛮佩服她的勇气，可以下定决心不和他们来往，希望神会祝福她，他现在是没什么好友了，（都变了嘛！），她将会去UTAR，希望神与她同在，保守她...
而我回来了，刚刚参加完主日学的一日营，本先是没那么期待的，哪知今天是我玩得非常高兴的一天，和天真无邪的小朋友玩，远远比任何一个朋友玩来得高兴，他们真是可爱。感谢神！我过得很实在，自从您出现以后，改变了我，改变了那无知，毫无目的的我。JJ来了这里，他真的蛮好笑的，也很好参，（如果不烂C的时候），HEHE~
好咯，这星期的比较短点，有机会我会在多加新的，感谢看我部落格的朋友，感谢你们的关心，再见咯！=)

p/s:孝敬父母，使你得福。今天学的，小心，还热哦！哈~
（从笠芫偷学的，虽然我不知道p/s的意思，但应该是这样用吧？哈哈，是吧？^^）

3rd come back~

2009-04-24T16:21:00.000-07:00

Well,as u know,i can write this blog means that there is a seat for me this week~
Hehe,yea,i get so many cares from all of my beloved friends~i would like to thank them here and wish them a happy day too. =)
3rd week in BM,it's quite interesting~Tuesday,i went to berapit's basketball court,hehe,being the mvp there~my shooting rate is nearly 95%~ Usually,i will be standing under the basketry,but some of the players made me not to do so... They played rudely with me,well,they still couldn't stop me from getting marks~ =D After winning 2 match,we played a 5 on 5 game...It's totally different from the two match that i had before,they are more older and "taller".It's quite hard standing under basketry,but i still can do my job, =) ... but soon,i was "Bled Out",during thier fast-aggression,i dashed back to my own place,the ball carrier was running with a high speed and i ran faster than him and i was in front of him before he reached the red area...Out of the blue,i saw his anger flying towards my face and i cant avoid it~ BooM!! My nose is quite pain now~Pacifying it~
Well,after that,i back to hostel and gotta wash my "sweaty" shirt,why it's sweaty? becasue it can sweat without me,geli leh? hehe~ then i m deadly tired,i just lie on my bed and slept~
Wednesday night~i studied till 2 a.m. (It's because i was sleeping in the afternoon),suddenly Suet Kee(my house mate),she met something strange,she saw a girl who is my housemate also,but that night she was back,sleeping near to her!! Walao,then she heard Hui Ying,who is my housemate too,calling her~but there was almost 2 a.m. ,Suet Kee kept on closing her eyes...and soon she found that she iwas breathing hardly,no way,she straight rushed out the room and went into the bathroom,cry or may be not...Terrible,it made me couldn't sleep well that night. =S
Well,thursday,the most funny day,Liang Zhen,who is my housemate also, =P!! he was exhausted that day and he decided to sleep early from 8p.m. till tomorrow~ok,after finishing my homeworks and revision which took me a long time,i went to sleep too,it was about 12a.m.,and that night was strange,everyone slept before 12a.m.but i couldn't get into dream!! Suffering from that,and 2 hours later,i was success to meet the dream master~ but i was shocked!! i heard some one washing his shirt or wat in the bathroom! Strange! it's about 3.30a.m. u know? How come there will be an idiot washing his cloth at that time and he knew that his shirt will not be dried,buti decided not to care about it,it's better i stay in my room and do nothing,just breathed deepely and slept~
Argh~what a good morning,it was friday,i'm going back today,so excited... =D after bathing,i found that the idiot was Liang Zhen!! -.-'' If Liang Zhen is reading the this blog,it can be sure that u are laufing at me... =.=''
Well,in other way,i found something that exist in my house but not in my hostel,it is HOT WATER!! I got to withstand the extremely iced-cool water every drawn! I scream when the water flows down my skin~it makes me HIGH~haha,i may train my singing skill there...Will it disturbing others? Who cares,everyone is screaming inside too~ =D
At there,i met boys who i interest in,and i met a indian friend,his name is Joy,he suppose in the upper six this year,but last year he decided to join a christ team to run a program which named "Mission".It takes him half of the year to evangelize in Indonesia and Sarawak~Wow~fantastic huh? =) he gave me a bibble which is in both langue,English and Chinese.Thank ya.=D
Well,i met a girl,Zer Ling,she come from BM high,i got lots of question to ask her.=D She is quite a cute girl and as i know,may guys want to tackle her,but she dont speak chinese and even don't understand chinese,she speak in english and malay only,so most of them threw their tower~
Well,that's it,see u guys next week lorh,thx my friends,love u all. =)

IBM 2nd Week~

2009-04-18T19:49:00.000-07:00

It is not bad from outside looking to my hostel,hehe,thats why i dare to capture it and never capture inside...xD~hehe...

Originality way created by my friend,Engineer(he always consider himself) Haren Tan~ to cook to Ba Chang~

My little corner for studying~ with my burger~hehe~

Form 6 math,i feel challenging~and a bit of fear~ haha...

class started at 7.45 a.m,looking out the window,OMG!its raining downpour,no way,have to be the chicken in the soup today. >"<

Bukit Mertajam,surely there will be a Bukit lah~ xD~

IBM,my school now~

It was so much different in the second week of IBM,everythings teacher taught is being harder and harder,and i have to try harder and harder to catch up~

Thank God,you help me most of the time,you are my power...

It's really hard being a "Good" person.As a Christian,i knew what not to do and what i have to do...In fact,i m not feeling well most of the time when i have to step back because i m a Christian,God will happy that i did what he said,but u know...its really so hard to do that...sometimes i m wilful to cry...i stopped it imediately...I don't like to be the "Cry Man",i can handle all thoes things,but...my heart,somehow,its hurt...Just like a wood nail up,even it is plucked off,the hole will never disappear,from God,i got the comfort...BUT I M HUMAN BEING!!

WHY!!!Don't think i gotta step back then ask me to run backwards!! Why?!!! In Ecclesiastes,it told us that this world has lost...eveythings is like dummy...

Most of the time,I can't find fair in my family,as the Nine Knift writer stated that "In house,there is not a place for u to argue about fair,because it's not the lawcourt,SO NO LAW HERE!"

I'm from Buddha family,i m the only 1 christian in there,and,some of them,they look at me like lokking at a stranger?!Hey,come on,i m your brother,we can just like before,why must u ignore me? and after believing in Jesus,i got to suffer from all thoes unfair matters...If before i believe,i can affirm that is it will be a storm in our house again,and later the Zeus(my mum) comes out,u know and i know what will happen...I got no way but have to bear myself,i dont want my mum to be suffered from it,and i dont wan to argue always against my family,and i have to show them that i went to church before,it changed me anyway,so,what i can do is bearing all the fell,no matter how i angry,i bear it,how i sad,i squeeze myself into coverlet and cry....

My family is worse? Not really...just sometimes...if i bear all thoes,then my family may become better...I m not the only kind person in my family also,so don't think my family is worse...my parents and siblings love me,take care of me,but in "other way" only...strange,i can only feel it when i think it very positively...for now,i m going back to BM study again,hopefully,the next week i come back,there is a seat for me...

Thank God,i had beared all thoes unfair and inexplainable matters...take it easy,I'm MEAK! But NOT WEAK! Well...here,i got to appologize to Ly and Pheypei,i cant on9...>"<

i got to stop here,time's up...my friend who i treasure,see you all next week,God always be with u all.

Lameness come to me again~

2009-04-11T18:06:00.000-07:00

2-day holidays have passed so fast that i couldn't realise i m going to back to BM again~I m wondering shouldn't i b happy that i m going back for study? Then,i finally find out what's making me think like that...THERE HAS NO INTERNET!!!
LAME
"Lame~Lame~and LAME!
Days passing like years~
Why~Why~and WHY?!
Inasmuch of Doggie faces in my dream~
Think~Hesitate~and Dream!!
Only dream can drug myself~
Bored~Stuffy~and Depressed~
Scratching the glass which leading my mood to high pitch~
Day~Day~and Sunday~
Deadly walk back to there again~"
While you are reading down it,make it more creative and imagine if there is a songs like "Get Low" playing,that is interesting~for u but not for me!! =__=''
Hehe...Looking at this "Lame" which created by my sudden mood,i miss my computer and my friends~(even i broguht my laptop to there,but there has no INTERNET!!)
Why do i say that? Because i cant get the latest news! And it is such lame being the "outdated" person. Fine,i think i can live without that,and just bury my head into the BOOKS~Hopefully that will make my times become hours and not minutes. Hehe...my friends,don't worry about me,i m not as that weak as u guys think me is,i can do all things through Christ who strengthen me!I m not affraid and i m gonna be a TANKER!!Thanks for advicing me,my friends...
Fine,look at the watch,i gotta pack my baggage,there are huge of things that i haven't tidy up yet~
Good bye my friends~See u next week~ =)

心底话

2009-04-10T11:41:00.000-07:00

凌晨三点了，你或许可以当作我是梦游梦到电脑前面的...

不知不觉，已一个星期了，在新的地方，新的环境，新的朋友，新的老师，新的感想，新的食物！！=P!!!

那里的事情，让我有了些感想，那是很久之前的了...或许夸张了点，不过我有时总是需要在一些朋友面前笑着脸皮，不过心里哭着，而心里许许多多的话就好如刚煮好的饭的蒸汽想一次过爆发！！为什么我不说？这问题很好，我也想问我自己，同时在这，我为我自己感到悲哀，寂寞...不是不讲，不过讲不出口！你知道你们的样子很欠打吗？很狗吗？总是那个样子，谁能和你说话？只有你讲！我呢？有些事情真的只需要单方面的认同就好了吗？真的是单方面吗？...我疯了！！为什么我可以顾及双方，不过你总是单方面的忘了我呢?我的感受呢？心情呢？我是人呢！我还在地球啊！！究竟是谁决定的？表面上是乎是大家同意，但实际上，我可以说话吗？真的可以吗?可以，不过不能罢了...因为都不一样想法了...说了出来，大家不好过，心软的总会是我，到时难受的又只会是我...就是因为尊重你，才不说出来，当许许多多这些的心里话聚集的时候，这就是“心底话”，而最痛苦的是，我知道有些地方是我不好的，不过这些都不可能再拿回出来说的了，就算了吧，都把它往心里埋...气很快就吞了进去...而这些“蒸汽”在心底忍久了，多多少少会有些跑到眼睛去了...在新生活里，一些小小的事务总是提醒我，提醒我那些心底的事...好甘苦，不想都不行。

以上的都是废话，如果你认为是的话...因为这不是给每一位的...

而里头也包括了我个人的情绪发泄，所以可以不必理会。=)

好了，我也蛮懒惰的要把一星期的事情一次过写出来...所以我会比较喜欢感想式的写法...

在新的生活里，我都必须过着我十八年来不一样的生活方式，早上到旁晚都在上课，回家后就睡下，那是我就享受的时候，晚上就去试吃不一样的美食，之后再回家读书和整理学校的东西...时间算是过得满快的。朋友们都不必担心我，我过得很好，感谢神，带领我...不过不必担心不代表不必睬我啊！我还是很需要你们的，特别是你们两个！为什么呢？因为你们在我心里的位子可以让我放心的说心事（虽然不是每一次）...

好啦，刚刚的我被“他”鸟了下，我没话说，他如果在读着这章，他应该知道我说的是什么...

好了，夜了，哦雅士米~ ^_^v

新章；当年的生活

2009-04-04T17:39:00.000-07:00

在这感谢那位小姐，第一次在我的部落格上写上一句褒义词。
Hmm...我解释一下哦，我之前真的打算不写了，不过看看我高中的时间表，我还是可能会有些时间的。 =)
“呜呜~”多么让人开心的哭声。证明了，那孩儿并不是哑巴的，而同时证明了，那孩儿出生了...好希望他/她可以成龙/凤，这是大部分父母都想自己的孩子的吧？这又是一个盼望放在那小孩生上了，那是多么的期待...
我相信，每个人都有他本身的故事，而重点就是你是否回想过这些故事。许多人在忙碌的生活当中，往往忘了自己的父母，家人...现在，请用10秒的时间，想想自己的父母，是否很久没真正的看他们了？是否有皱纹了？老了？而往往人们就是喜欢在患难中，才会露出他们对别人的“爱”，有多久没爱你们的父母了呢？想...别只是会想，要做！别等到有事才来捐肝捐肺，显露出你对他们的爱，太迟了...
以一生人来说，朋友就只是分阶段的，一些朋友陪你成长，一些已成长，一些伴你共事...在公司里，要是你死了，两天后就会有人会取代你的位子，而你在家人眼里是无可取代的，他们会伤心欲绝...
看了Jerry新的部落格，我不用点英文似乎有点追不上潮流咯...
Family，这是我们一生中，最重要的，永远不会抛弃你的，永远爱你的...不知大家是否知道，这个字的来历？
F = Father
A = And
M = Mother
I = I
L = Love
Y = You
我们应多花些时间来陪陪家人的，而父母，从小到大，是从小到大啊！不知你是否能找得到一个朋友，或者同事是可以那样的对你呢？几十年了...听好，不是十几年，是几十年了，那么的爱你，疼你，保护你，关怀你，养你，寄望于你...那是多么不简单的事情，而现在的小孩子（包括本人），都太幸福了，幸福的连何谓幸福也不知道...我们应该多花些时间去了解，明白...之后？行动！如何行动？不会吧？这些不应该是我教的了，希望大家肯用一丁点的时间想想，用多多的时间来行动，踏出第一步，而做事情总有失败和成功，别因为第一次的失败而放弃了，神都没放弃过爱我们，那我们呢？大家一起说Family吧！^^
加油，写完这篇，我又要回到去读书了，下次见咯. =)

最后一章；选择，决择？

2009-03-30T21:44:00.000-07:00

对，大家猜对了，我将要开始我的新生活了，而这章，便自然的成为最后一章。
经过许许多多的想法，从不知道到知道，从不明白到明白，从选择到抉择，这都是不容易的过程，不过这也是每个人必须经过的，而这些就决定了你的将来。没有啦，没那么严重，我之前把它看得太严重了，害得我东想西想，不敢做决定。其实我们有时不必作那么远的策划的，如果我们那么做了，岂不是看小了神的大能？坚信着，神会带领我的。
好慢长的假期啊，SPM之后，朋友各飞东西，更别说我们会有什么毕业旅行的了...在这假期里，我去了槟城工作，两个月做两份工，够力，而和一些朋友住在一起，有吵架的，快乐的（少之又少），而某些朋友也变了，变得不再像是我们当时一起读书的朋友了，他们被世族，欢天喜地的地方与人影响了，这看起来是多么不起眼的改变，都像不严重的，不过，这便是你们改变的开始，之后还有更多的试探呢！我是个满重朋友的人，我可以为朋友付出，不过在槟城的日子，好让我失望...
可怜的朋友啊，你们当时读书的愿望呢？意志呢？怎么会变成这样啊？喜爱喝酒，当初的你们只是说试试而已...喜爱夜街，你们只是说这次和朋友吃东西，吃晚了...何时的你们都喜欢上这些了？生为朋友的我，只能叹息，我什么也不能做，也许就是那句话：“是这样的啦。”多么的诚恳对待他们，换来的就只是，你好烦啊！此类的话..这就是你们的选择？我无言以待...
我感谢神，拣选了我，让我往往明白自己在做什么，从一个什么都不懂的小孩，教会了我那么多的东西。
往往一个人的选择便决定了她/他接下来的命运和路程，就好比如这句话，You are who you think you are，就只是看你个人的抉择而已，各位弟兄姐妹们，要好好的保守你们的心，别让恶魔抓住了你的脚跟，做错了抉择，那时你想翻身都难。
而我当时选择了听神的话，现在我学会了，看得懂了，明白了；有些人说这是成长的一部分，并不是神的带领，当然，我有成长，不过，我成长的对，我敢说，如果我没选择耶稣，我将和他们一样，喜爱喝酒，喜爱吵架，喜爱出夜街，不会孝顺我的家人，跟恐怖的都可能发生...
一个人的选择与抉择都非常的重要的，哪怕是小小的选择，这将会改变你的一生中的曾经啊，后悔也不能了...
Jerry回来后，生活都和以前大不一样了，我们有好多东西聊，而我也去了槟城，认识了他在NS的朋友，有Vince,Jao Jun,Phey Pei,Li Yuan,Ming Xiang,Kelly...当中有好多的故事哦，而最让我担心的就是Vince,他是一个很好的朋友，不过现在他不大想睬我了...好失望...
好啦，妈妈又唠叨了，收拾的进展度80%,之后就离开这里了，保重了咯，朋友，很想看回从前的你们...NS 的朋友，很高兴认识你们，希望你们也是如此，保持联络咯！！

第三章；男人！

2009-03-25T11:12:00.000-07:00

新的电影，相信大家都知道，Berjamin Button,导演是David Fincher,这是一个非凡的故事，主角是一位从老到小孩的故事，而在这故事里，它带出了生命不是看时间，而是看片刻的。可以想象看，一位与人颠倒的人生，发生在你生上吗？父母都嫌弃你。当那些欠打的小孩在外踢着那颗烂足球时，你却在家里（收容所），挨着许许多多的老人病吗？盼望着...盼望着那一天的到来...为什么得盼望呢?因为就只能盼望...
以上的都是我看完那套戏的感想，抱歉让每位读了一些与题目无关的。

我欠打？谢谢，许多人都如此称赞我。而其实以上的是否有关，我不知道，看您如何想了...
在亚当的后人里，谁无经过男孩，到男生，到男人呢？人生嘛，总是有阶段的。有些人是尽快的，恨不得的，或者自己不是但自以为是的，把自己从男孩提升到男生。而有人也把自己尽快的把自己提升到男人？开玩笑，那是你自己想的，有谁想变老啊？男生都是不知觉的提升到男人的...
我们先来谈谈三种人的差别：
男孩：我明明都做对了，为什么啊？感觉对啊，不对咩？讨厌...
（问题来了，男孩总是有点儿自以为是的，不会回头看看自己的，往往也只靠感觉，因为他们还不知道，感觉其实不是他们做事情的出发点，对自己做的事情往往下不了一个对与错的肯定，因为他们在做的时候，都不知道自己在做什么，之后就只会埋怨。觉得我正在说的是你，是时候反省了，别害羞，这是每个人都必须经过的，不过如果你真的反省了，恭喜你，你已经脱离男孩了，成长了，会想了，谦虚了。）
男生：对不起，以前我的无知。好吧！和它拼了！
（思想开始成熟了，明白了人情世故，开始有自己的主见了。而这是热血沸腾的时候，也是男生最具有爆发力的阶段，凡事都带有冲力，这有好处，也有坏处，就是会时常有理由的犯错，喜欢“因为"这字，因为了解的还不够多。）
男人，我不必说了，相信各位对男人都有一定的认识，见解和看法吧？就成熟稳重，见多识广，彬彬有礼，而且都是很有绅士风度的。
而如何判断那人的阶段呢？大多数的人都不以为然的认为是年龄，不过其实是那人的思想。人家会如何想自己，不是由他们决定的，而是我们自己决定的。
男孩和男生们！站起来！错不怕认，最怕不敢认！屁可以乱放，不过请说:是我放的。因为承认自己的过错才是最困难的，那就是为什么那是值得高兴的。凡事敢做敢为（好的方面）。而人家放的屁也可以认？除非当时你和她正在接吻。
各位男士们，不论是谁，包括我，都为自己反省，终有些地方是我们没察觉的，做不好的，做错不承认的，以为没做错的，不过事实上是做错的，而最恐怖的是以为自己没做错，这是最大的错误。切记，凡事谦虚，人们会敬你一尺；凡事包容，人们会敬你一丈。
好了，夜已深，有一对充满杀气的眼神瞪着我，她是我最敬畏的，我再写下去，恐怕我不能写第四章了，晚安各位。^^

第二章；日记

2009-03-23T10:51:00.000-07:00

凌晨一点五十三分，我正在发着无聊的夜日梦，听着歌...
我翻开我年少时的日记，都记载了一些有的没的，想起了当年我所追过的一个女孩，她并不是很好，甚至好让我伤心...当时的我，培养着这些所谓的“小狗爱情”，时间过得好快，还要快过Donovan Bailey（世上跑最快的男生），他破了World Record，在100 米中，以9.84 s完成了...而我最后换来的却是空虚，为什么？我花了那么多的时间，换来的，不该是更多吗？连我自己都笑了...相信大部分的年轻人，都曾经暗恋过人，追过人，也必定作出许多丑事吧？不过那是多么得让人回味...想念啊想念...那时的我，是痛苦的，烦恼，空虚，无奈，愚蠢，等等....原来，我有那么多的快乐日子消耗在愁苦里...我可以每天都过的高兴，无忧，充实，意义，智慧的...
日记的下一页，便看见了和朋友的点点滴滴，那一张，我珍惜得不得了的照片：
-吵架时，脸对脸骂架，明明是那么的近，但骂得他好像在我外婆家那儿，喊得死伯大声~
都骂得那么凶了，真佩服当时的那位忘了什么名的朋友，按下了快门，卡擦，就那么的，两个大傻瓜就被拍了...
-在party时，大家的大合照；又是那位，不知什么名的，不过可以确定的是他一定是想当摄影师，要不然怎会每次照片里都没有他；他按下了快门...卡擦！看着那些面孔，好多好多回忆的事情...
-来到了最后一张，毕业照...大家是多么的舍不得，有些女生已在哭了，而男生都不哭，好像很man，不过心里想哭得半死...
再翻下一页，那里头写着我的人生目标，多么伟大的梦想，何时的我们，失去了梦呢？
惊醒的我，看看手表，四点十四分了，回想起来，我生命的文章，好像缺乏了点意义呢！我可不想我的人生作文是一张被划乱的烂纸...
日记是记载着我们的曾经，我们的成长，我们的路程，如何让路变得更宽，如何让成长事半功倍，要如何让“曾经”变成我们人生上值得骄傲的字，如何把失败当成成功的路牌，都是由我们决定的...
关起日记，开了一本较新的，我要好好的向下一个目标计划和前进了...
梦里醒来的我，看着新的日记，日记可以是我们的成功之书，也可以是我们的失败之书，我们不一定只在里头写些过去的，我们也可定下目标，计划将来的，成与败就看自己了！加油，弟兄们！在人生的决择上，别因为些挫折，使你皱眉头，应该让它来让你成长...

来做个总结吧，日记这里，在下希望大家明白，我们应该珍惜我们的成长过程，那是属于自己的过去，确确实实的经过了，不必活在曾经里，我们还有美好的将来。而我们的曾经与将来都写在日记里，决定者是我们，大家要主动，做出一些改变，好好的编写自己的日记，写一篇连自己都感动得拍手拍脚，生命的文章。
微微发亮的太阳，露出了那温柔的光线，照向我的脸，我微微的张开眼，伸一伸懒腰，新的一天，新的开始，新的人生，改变，立刻开始吧！！！FIRE!!

第一章；朋友的限时

2009-03-22T20:06:00.000-07:00

相信每个人都有朋友吧？以上便是我中学中最要好的朋友！我相信他们也是这样想的。神，赐给了我们朋友，因为我们需要。然而，这些朋友，能在我们的生命里头呆多久呢？一年？十年？时候到了，朋友就必须离你而去，俗语说；送君千日，终须一别。陪伴多久的朋友，谁会舍得呢？连狗都会为离别而哭泣，何况人类的七情六欲比起任何生物还来得丰富。（这比喻只在如果你不认为自己是狗时，或许你不是狗时，才成立的。）
那么既然已成为好朋友了，甚至死党了，怎么办呢？离别的时间总会到来...那么是否意味着，其实结果都是一样的，所以倒不如不认识？当然不是，这样的想法或许幼稚了点。其实事实恰恰相反，已经知道终须一别，便应该珍惜现在，因为你们的曾经，不会因为你们的离别，而消失在太阳系之外的。朋友曾经在一起，那绝对不是梦！大家都那么的确确实实在一起，又有谁能断定你们曾经不是好朋友呢？时间？不可能，时间只会冲淡一些事情，而那些事情是否会被遗忘，那就要看你自己了。
相信现场读者都读过在下写的序言了吧？朋友就在你的曾经里，你必须走出来，接触新的东西，不论那是多么的舍不得，因为我们都不可让那曾经改变我们的未来。试想想，如果你时常的活在那“我曾经的好朋友”里头，换来的只会是痛苦，这便是事实。不过我没说不可以伤心哦，我们都是有血有肉的，当然是会伤心的。
而朋友与朋友之间是不可以作比较的，因为比较中，终会有一方胜出，然而败北的会高兴么？开玩笑，谁会舒服啊？如果不做比较，大家都会开心的，大家都会有空间，何乐而不为呢？这些都相当的重要，废话！要不是重要的话，我怎么会用那么多的时间，写了那么多重要的废话给你们听呢？哈哈...除非你是牛，才听不懂我的琴声...好好思考我的论点，听着，要好好的思考，那么你就会得了一个结果，那就是...haiz...你们又来了，刚才才说过，好好的思考！又来依赖我和你们说了，生性点...
至于朋友的限时呢？我就不买官子了，结果我想大家都知道了，那就是永远！

对吧？我也不知道，看你了! ^^

序言；曾经

2009-03-18T02:28:00.000-07:00

曾经，是多么奇妙的一句话，它可以成为美好的形容词，也同样可以变为人们连放屁都不想要想起的一句话...以上是我的年中考的数学考试？当然不是，那只是某人的“曾经”。但多少人是活在这句话当中呢？当然，别问我，我不知道...
“曾经”有那么一些朋友，好得连底裤可以一起穿呢！是那么的怀念，那么的想回到过去...有些人认为，人们的记忆就好如拼图，终会有些拼图是那么的深刻，而有些则消失在富士山中...相信正在读着这些废话的读者们都会有些拼图的碎片是对本身特别的，有纪念价值的，甚至是忘不了的...而那些"曾经"的拼图更是不必说了...
而以上的我所说的，是否有什么深层意义呢？答案是没有的，对！以上都是些废话，不过这些废话往往就是人们在潜意识不留意之时，所做下错误的决定了...而这些废话和我接下来的话是否有关系呢？有的，而且是莫大的关系...
为什么说错误的决定呢？就好比如说某某个人，曾经小时候被某某些背景影响了他们做人的宗指，分不清对与错时，就会很自然的做错了选择，决定，这也可能便改变了他的人生。然而我们都是从某些“曾经”出来的，而许多人都活在那“曾经”当中，忘不了，改不好...人在此时，便会为自己的曾经感到伤悲，感叹，正常的，因为我们都只是人类。而关键就在于那人是否会，是否可以在这曾经走出来，成长，学习，改善? 许多人都只会净说些粪话，而草草了事，不去在意。但这些“曾经”时常将会被他们当作借口而顺理成章的理由，做了他认为应该做的，而其实他们会变成被动的。

曾经有一位朋友那么的向我问，如果那曾经不曾发生过呢？发梦！都发生了，怎能做这种不可能的“如果梦”呢？人就必须学习如何从“曾经”走出来，看看自己，便会有不同的领会...
而我们现在，我再写这篇序言时，读者们在读时，这每份每妙都会成为曾经，我们都应该学习时时刻刻警惕自己，因为我们是有未来的，我们都是在为未来活着，盼望着，计划着...那你还在这读些什么呢？我说了那么久，还不明白吗？意思是说，曾经= 未来，未来=曾经，如何的改善曾经，就好比如如何的改善自己的未来，而改善了自己的未来，也就等于改善了自己的曾经。

好啦，不明白的可以发问，但我不会看，也不会回答的...别发梦了，时光宝贵，珍惜家人，看看年迈的父母，我们是否应该做些什么呢？别让曾经来决定你，而是你改变曾经，决定自己...You are who you think you are。加油！神会带领我们的。
就此停笔...